Putting a price on My Soul

Life seems to be about settling, or satisfying this yearning. Ultimately I believe its for a true experience of what we believe, or think, is God. But why this yearning for something that is truly everywhere? This has been the answer, the conclusion, the solution to all my questions, seeking, yearning - to those deep, slow burning questions that I have inside. There are many, or have been. It all came down to the statement when I took the risk to step out of the game - "I want more!!" I yearn to know the "God thing", "how do I fit?", "how does it work?", "why?"

But if it is already here, in everything, why do I have to go somewhere, or seek, or do? I guess it is the nature of the experience here - in this we call "life". I also seek happiness, peace, appreciation - is this the same desire for God? After all of the acquisition of things, experience, knowledge it has always been followed by a "neediness" for more. That experience has become "wanting" - there is a bitter taste it has left behind. Some thing in my heart tells me that "doing" any more will leave me dissatisfied - "Doing" in the sense of expecting some external reward - money, prestige, recognition. Of course I like to be noticed - I think we all do. But after stacking up a bunch of paper, or numbers, or words I found there wasn't much satisfaction. The satisfaction, now, comes from just the act of Sharing. It's kind of like "Being" for me. I've done a lot of stuff, gotten some answers, or more questions, but it's fun to just Share. But how can I put a price on that? It does seem to be the most important game in the world. I used to play Monopoly. But it did get boring. I found the reward of winning to not be worth the anxiety of "wanting" to win.

What is a fragrant flower blooming in a dew covered meadow worth? Or the laughter of children? To become like a child offers the chance to enter the Kingdom?

I've really lost interest in putting a price on what I do. The numbers game has really come to bore me. Does a tree trust that the Earth will still be here to hold its roots? Do I question each day whether the "science" of the electrons of my body will still operate in balance, or even the galaxies? Why this lack of trust in what we call human affairs?

I depend on nature for my lessons. When I go outside the elements and living things seem pretty peaceful - always moving, yet peaceful. Even the stars or the elements in my body seem in balance - at least it feels that way. I have learned that everything is living and dying - but that is just the natural process of things. The interesting thing is the consistency of the consciousness of the feeling of being me. I've been told I go lots of other places but I don't really remember, clearly.

I can tell my appreciation for what is, has been, is expanding. Sometimes the joy, the ecstacy that seems to emanate from my heart is increasing. I have learned a lot in this lifetime - and now I know I really know nothing. But my yearning to be one with God has expanded too. And yet now I know that I can't ever be out of God - so, I guess, I am really yearning to Be, here, Now - because, I guess I am - at least this part I am aware of. I'm pretty sure God really is taking care of everything. At least the last time I checked he/she/it was.

I'm just thinking I'm just going to Share my stuff - I don't know what else to do. I'll let someone else put a value to it. It just feels good to Share. Others can take it or leave it. I like my stuff. Sometimes it really surprises me. Not many other people seem to notice. Ah, what the hell. I'm not very good at marketing and advertising - well, actually I just don't want to play that game either - I can be pretty good. I don't play Monopoly, chess or video games either.

I guess I'm just becoming a boring old guy. I like to think about God, life and how to feel peaceful and really happy - how do I avoid feeling angst, or frustration or anger? What can I do to help others to feel happy? I like this stuff now. I don't really know how to put a price on those things. I don't really want to "raise money" to do them either. This game just has really gotten boring to me. And it seems to cause a lot of angst. I guess I'm screwed because many people tell me that I have to play the game just to live. Hmmmm . . ., this is quite the conundrum . . . . What am I gonna do?

What would love do?

What would love do?

To me, you, everyone, and all life - all of existence, from experience to experience, breath to breath, sunrise to sunset, in the glimmer of the stars at night and every moment of all that I experience.

Thank you Love for this opportunity to discover Love, Peace and Abundance within me that I promise, to myself and you to Share!

Dear God - Todays Prayer for Peace

Today I pray to bring peace to the world in the following ways.

To breathe consciously and appreciate the gift of my life, and remember to be grateful. To teach people and help them really learn and believe in Reverence for Life. I visualize and take the actions I can to create governments and companies that are responsible for correct actions towards people and the Earth. I visualize and take actions for making technology and the media to be an instrument of Peace and Love providing entertaining, educational, and empowering messages to all people to empower them and bring Peace and harmony to the world. Today I visualize and take the actions to Share with people through my teaching the wonder and glory of the world and the cosmos and how special each person, each flower, each tree and each animal is. Today I visualize and take the actions to assist people to understand that we have made government and business and money and technologies to SERVE us, the people, and that the Spirit of Love guides all of life and our opportunity is NOW to create heaven on Earth - a paradise. Finally, I pray that all people understand how powerful, wonderful, beautiful and spectacular they are in the eyes of their God and the only way to find peace is in their own hearts and act governed by the Golden Law. "Do unto others, as you would have done unto you" - and this means all of Life.

With Peace, Andy

42 more things to do for Gaia

1. Take a college course in environment or science
2. Meditate on Gaia
3. Make a list of reasons to be grateful to Gaia
4. Organize an event to educate people about nature
5. Organize a trash pick up event
6. Stand up and yell "I Love Gaia!"
7. Think "I Love Gaia"
8. Whisper "I Love Gaia", even if you don´t believe it
9. Convince yourself to believe "I Love Gaia"
10. Convince yourself that Gaia Love´s you, because it is true.
11. Help me Share this message with the world
12. Contact me so I can Serve you
13. Writer a nature story about an animal
14. Contemplate deeply on aspects of this message
15. Try to feel in your heart the import of this message
16. Organize and take a trip in nature
17. Study advanced sciences for how to help solve environmental problems
18. Support political candidates who work for the environment
19. Buy an energy efficient car
20. Push for an energy policy and support for new alternative energy
21. Find out about Free Energy
22. Study Nikola Tesla´s work
23. Read the book "The Great Work" by Thomas Berry
24. Look into sustainable development and communities
25. Support an organic farmer
26. Help promote less use of chemicals in our food production
27. Sing a song for nature
28. Smile at someone and think that "Gaia Loves Them"
30. Organize a conversation with friends about what we can all do to protect nature
31. Learn how a "hyperspectral sensor" can help with solving environmental issues
32. Study a science topic to work to protect the environment
33. Read "Silent Spring" by Rachel Carson
34. Learn about the environmental movement
35. Go to your priest and minister and tell them this is an important message for them to Share
36. Write a single blog about some topic of nature or Gaia
37. Become a member of the Gaia Writer´s Guild
38. Support an organization that works to protect the environment
39. Support the Plant a Tree Today Foundation
40. Volunteer for an organization that works for Gaia, or nature
41. Contemplate on where we would be without Gaia
42. Thank yourself for Reading the Blog, because you are doing something for Gaia already!