A Grand Review Christmas 2011 - Accomplishments and Sharings

A Review - accomplishments without being paid

After writing the message yesterday, I was inspired to compile this Christmas Message 2011, to go back and look at what has been accomplished over the past few years. Blogging is great, but I think stuff can get kind of lost. So, here is a summary of some of the more pertinent messages, as they might relate to the end of this incredible year of 2011, and as we head into 2012, which I do believe is going to be an amazingly, wonderful year of transformation and growth, for the entire world. I am very optimistic, but there is still a lot of work to be done.

Ok, so I went through my past blogs, looking for the "gems". This is all stuff that has been created without money. These ideas are simply Shared, in the interest of raising vibrations, and helping people realize that Life is really pretty incredible

Andy's Aha Moment, thanks to Mutual of Omaha for this (hehe this was a real bad hair day, I didn't know I was going to do this).
My first radio interview, associated with the World Reverence for Life University, thanks to Desmond Green and Gregory Miller with Voice of People Radio

Love Transcends
Diversify, Cooperate, Go inside - A meandering thought stream.
World Proclamation for Emancipation 2011
My Vision in a Nutshell
Peace Making
Homelessness, Bulk Mail, Corporations, Change
Solution
The Man Who Planted Trees - an inspirational story
Questioning Beliefs
Cracking the Money Bands - Metatron
A Simple Solution - the Public Private Enterprise - John DeSantis
Summary of Creation - succinct summary of What IS.
Ignorance is Not Bliss

Foundational to Our New "Civilization", the Universal Principle "Reverence for Life" and excerpt - a espoused by Albert Schweitzer

Wake Up America
Never Outside - a poem
A Real Opportunity - Time to Change - the Media
Let's Be Straightforward
Unconditional Love - a Flow of Thoughts
Love is the Motivator


Vision Excelerator - is a business, idea incubator. This is about helping people to realize their dreams

Book, by Andrew Skadberg, encapsulating the Vision, a comprehensive strategy to build a bridge to the future.
"Vision – We Are Re-Creating the World: A Resource Manual “tool-box” for Revitalization and Empowerment through Grass-roots Strategies and Environmental Awareness".

Jamaica Self Management Institute and Reverence for Life University

13LightMessages - meaningful essays, poetry and resources that have helped me Share my ideas, and enhanced my experience here.

Rural Innovation Institute - a resource center being developed as a virtual educational institute focusing on sustainability, innovation, cooperation and creativity.

Solomon Source - a few blogs, more along the lines of my work and related to strategy for re-creating the world.

Experiential University, Blog - some postings of online courses and materials, primarily aimed at the tourism industry.

Here are the other books that I wrote, compiled or edited and made available digitally in the last few years. They are free for download from these links. I have at least 4 other books well on there way, waiting for me to finish them.

When Love Guides Your Thoughts - written by Solomon, edited by Andrew Skadberg
I Am Sharing, Thoughts, Experiences and Learning about Love and Service - by Andrew Skadberg
Poems and Essays about Love, Life and One by Andrew Skadber
Your Breath - The Key by Andrew Skadberg
Global Citizenship Passport, by Desmond Green, compiled by Andy
Essenes Teachings and Study Guide - organized by Tom Dooley and edited/compiled by Andy

Freedom with Money

The financial system as it has been managed by the "powers that were" developed a system that put us in a position of dis-empowerment. This is because the beings that were running this old show were not just using the money system for their fear-based power trips, but as a means of keeping us in a state of fear, oppression, anger, etc. These states are all of a low vibration. In a state of low vibration us human beings are susceptible to all kinds of problems. And our energy is easily extracted. I don't know how exactly the energy is gathered by these people who have subdued the majority of us, but in the end it is not important.

What is important is for us, as individual, sovereign beings to understand is that we are solely responsible for our personal energy, vibration. And the situation of the improvement of the human condition, is one of raising our vibrations. This is a simple fact of our existence, and it is known in science and the great religions of the world, everything in existence is created from ONE thing that exists in the various physical and non-physical forms as vibrational energy. Simply, when we are happy and feel loved, we are at a higher vibration. When we are sad, feeling dis-empowered, disconnected and unloved we are of a lower vibration. When we get in a state of low vibration we are susceptible to all kinds of dis-ease and suffering. We are easily controlled. And, I guess, our energies are easily "sucked out" of us, by energy vampires. If not this , then we are easily put in a state of slave mentality and turned into human robots who believe life is about working a job to pay bills. That is if you are lucky, like the people in the United States. In other places, low vibration means various levels of suffering, disease, pestilence, and any other concept of living hell that you can imagine.

At least 14 years ago I realized that all of these ideas were sustained by our belief in them. In fact, we possibly conceived them. I came to this conclusion because I don't observe the same kinds of phenomena in the natural world. With the power of the collective human consciousness we could easily eliminate and rectify all of the "negative" conditions of the world. The power of one individual is so much, as is revealed now in science and has been told in the great spiritual teachings for 1000s of years.

Our problem, previously, is we haven't understood this power. We didn't know how it worked. We didn't really, consciously embrace this idea that we were a "spark of God". We didn't really contemplate and own this very, very powerful concept. Why, I guess we were too busy working at a boring job, playing in this very elaborate Monopoly Game. That is what I have realized, more or less, what the world of financial matters is. Of course, in order to get us fully engaged, immersed and lost in the game, it has had to have many, many engaging elements. But, when one steps back and sees it for what it is, it is apparent that it is just a very elaborate "made up" system for exchanging energy. Now, in our present era on Earth, it doesn't even necessarily take any physical form, paper, gold, etc. The majority is simply virtual money, which at some level is "1s" and "0s" in a computer or in the World Wide Web.

We created money to serve as a tool. And, according to my way of thinking, it isn't working. How do I come to this conclusion? Well, let's look at what would seem to be a silly example - if hammers, in the hands of some really mean bullies became the oppressors of all of us, say these people ran around hitting every one on the head and telling us we had to serve them, well, eventually we would come to the conclusion, because we were in the majority, that we would have to change how we related to hammers. We would take the hammers away from these mean guys. Now, we wouldn't feel like the hammers were our masters, we wouldn't look at the "tools" as the bosses, because the tools are inanimate, they are not alive. We could easily see that it was the people wielding the hammers that we would have to rein in, and take the hammers away from them. (this idea is presented in this entertaining, seemingly simple video "The Tiny Dot")

Now, essentially the second scenario is what we have in the world as it relates to the financial systems. Most of us live as if MONEY is our master. We are all so busy running around worried and thinking about it, that we never stop, and take a step back and realize that this is the nature of the game as it has been orchestrated. If our attention is focused on the money, then our energy is not being utilized effectively. And most of us are focusing our energy, with the belief that there isn't enough to go around. This is a very important part of the game as it has been orchestrated - scarcity ensures dis-empowerment. (for a digression about this idea, see "Is there a lack of Energy").

You see, our real power, the capital that God gave us to work with, can be simplified down to one word - attention. Where are our attention goes, so goes our energy. In the world today, this monopoly game rules. Commerce, trade, business, jobs, banking, finance, accounting, etc., etc. is the show to be watching. Our media is dominated by it. Our decisions are almost solely based on economics. Even decisions to rectify the problems that are created by our myopic economic drive inside the "money monopoly" game is determined by how much it will cost. In most cases, they are not considered and simply called "externalities". Even if you try to examine the money system, and come up with a systematic solution, or partial solution, it is so easy to get distracted in the details. Solutions are almost impossible to come up with because there are too many variables, too many perspectives, too many actuarial considerations, etc., etc. to consider as to be back at square one, rubbing ones head thinking, how can we fix this?

The only way to gain perspective is to step back and see it for what it is. It is made up. We made it up, at least someone before us did. We continue to focus our attention on it, so it continues to exist. It occupies a good majority of our lives and energies, and in most cases, unless you have a lot of it, which few people do in this world, it creates a considerable amount of duress. So, if we are the collective perpetuators of this game, and we are not having that much fun, why don't we change the game?, and if we come to the conclusion we do want to change the game, how do we accomplish that? Well, there are likely two ways. The first would be to figure out how the game works and then try to win the game based on the existing rules. The second would be to step out of the game and start a different game. Or maybe there is a third option, maybe not even make a game, maybe we should just put money back into its position of being a tool. We could play games with money, but money would not be the sole object of life, and so it would be relegated back to a proper position in the scheme of things, simply as a non-living instrument, or a tool to make our lives simpler, to accomplish certain things, like a hammer or screwdriver.

So let's look at these three possible scenarios. The first is to figure out the game and try to stay in it, or win it. Well, we can see people in the world who are doing this. These people are the ones who are reported in Fortune magazine and other publications as being the wealthiest in the world. And the list is constantly jockying, changing. How happy are they? What kind of people are they? I don't know, but I can guess that they are not really happy, because they must have this terrible yearning inside that keeps them wanting to win the game. And, in the end, they will never be satisfied because being the leader in this game is truly fleeting. The second question is kind of tricky because we don't want to stoop to being judgmental, but we can examine the results of their behavior and determine if they are creating satisfactory results. If I am getting rich, or living in opulence, at the expense of others, that likely isn't the best strategy. Whether I believe it or not, at the end of the day, I am paying, or will pay a price (notice even our language has been wrapped around terms in the money system - see essay Re-definition, Collective/Individual, Your Power to Co-Create). This is clearly revealed in both science and spiritual systems "action and reaction", "eye for an eye", "as above so below". There may be a temporary delay in the feedback loop, but there really is no "cheating" or tricking the energetic systems of the cosmos. Of course, we can delude ourselves on this which is the standard fare in the world, especially in circles that have accumulating wealth as their primary objective. But the fact of the matter simply comes down to "what goes around, comes around".

In another way, we can see this in simpler terms. We can't lie to ourselves. Because we know our lies, even though we may convince ourselves otherwise, we are basically just deluding ourselves.

The problem with the money game as it exists, is that it can operate on a basis of dishonesty. You can make a lot of money being a cheater and lier. You can make a lot of money in the business of killing people, and reaping havoc to the natural world and through exploitation of people and the natural resources. In fact, these practices are common among the most successful corporations of the world. This is the game that these people are playing, mostly with themselves, and we have become the unknowing, and dissolusioned pawns of this elaborate game.

But are these people that seem to be in "control" more powerful than us? No. And I can give you innumerable quotes from great teachers to verify this. But this is not important. The important thing to realize, if you are alive, breathing, creating, etc. you too have the Divine spark of the One Infinite Creator inside of you, and you have the same potential, capacities to create vast fortunes and influence in the world. What is the difference? You don't know, consciously. And, you likely have a default program that prevents you from playing the "Service to Self" game. You understand, somewhere deep in your being that the REAL game, is about SERVICE TO OTHERS. (I first learned of this from the Law of One Series, L/L Research)

And as a matter of fact, the Service to Self game has very little power, in the overall scheme of things. That is because the Service to Self game uses fear, oppression, whatever means necessary to have power over others. It will lie, cheat, steal, kill, whatever because it truly believes that that is the path back to Source, God, which is where we are all going. It will even use the means and methods to convince the majority of human beings that the Service to Self modus operandi is the only way to successful living. And that is the game we are playing. And, in order to keep this system in place, we are constantly being bombarded with messages, and energetic controls to keep us in a state of fear, dis-empowerment, frantic distraction have to buy this thing or that thing, bombarded with noise and energetic disruptions to try to keep us in a very low state of vibrations. But! Guess what? It's not working. Because, the power of love, the light quotient, the energy that we truly are, cannot be kept down. Now, as we approach what has been prophesied, (ascension, rapture, second coming, etc.) we are being called home to the One Infinite Creator, at least another step on the yellow brick road, or one rung on the ladder.

How do I know this? For one, because it has been happening to me. But mostly because I knew this, at some level, my whole life. And now, I am observing it all around me. People are looking at their lives and saying "is this all there is?" The American Dream, knowing that the corporations I am buying stuff from are also making billions of dollars building weapons to kill people in other countries. They are realizing, after chasing money, titles, stuff for a lifetime that they feel empty inside and realized that this Service to Self game is empty and un-fulfilling.

Stepping Out of the Matrix
My process of being set free has been a long and arduous one. Am I living without money you might ask? No, I am still using money. Do I not worry about paying bills? Yes, sometimes I feel stressed and the fears start to impinge on my peace of mind, but my situation was such that I didn't have a choice. I had to face my fears. I was in a situation where I didn't earn any money for about 4 years. And you know what? I'm still here. I ate pretty good. I did a lot of things. Many days I had no idea where the resources were going to come from, but they always did. Sometimes there was a few days where I didn't have a dime, but something or other always worked out.

So what I learned from this is, just like I don't worry about the sun shining, or the molecules of my body staying together, and all of the other things that are happening on Earth, the solar system, in my body and in the cosmos - the money system is also being managed by some unseen force. This is clearly stated in sacred texts like the Bhagavad Gita, and the Bible. And I have read many, many things, that state this quite emphatically.

But in my life experiences, I didn't really live like I believed these things. I lived with a "secret" fear. I didn't really trust, God, to take care of this. How do I know this? Because I felt fear. And when I have fear, that, ultimately, means I am not trusting. For many years my primary motivation around money, getting jobs, was based on fear. And, it served its purpose for a long time. It got me to this point. But now, Spirit is requiring another level of faith and trust. I have been put to the test of having nothing, of having none of my old methods of solving problems, of making money work to address my financial situation. And now what I am experiencing are lots of little miracles. Now, things that I need just seem to show up. At this point many of them are little things, like clothing, furniture, food, etc. - but, the important thing is, I can't explain, logically, how or why these things are showing up - but they are. Many times they seem to magically show up in my house, even in my closet. And I could list several examples in the past few months. Yes, I am still using money, but my relationship has changed to be one of trusting, that even though I don't know how I am going to pay rent in a couple weeks, that somehow, something is going to show up.

I woke up this morning thinking about what I have been able to accomplish with no money. It is actually quite impressive. I could make links to many things I have written, strategy that I have been working on, books for friends that I have helped compile, etc. And I will put some of these at the bottom of this essay. But, it's not necessarily important the quantity of what I have done, or even if they succeed, which I actually see happening, at least little synchronistic signs and developments. What is important is that I didn't allow my fears or worries about money keep me from pursuing my dreams. Even though at times I was under tremendous pressure, and stress because I was facing, potentially, my greatest fears, I kept doing what my heart and soul told me that I could do. I kept putting forth the inspirations that were coming to me. I kept Sharing, in my own little way, what I was finding out about the truth of life, creation, of love and what I have seen and learned, or remembered as Socrates believed, to be going on here in this incredible cosmos. I continued to develop my ideas that had been bubbling around in my consciousness. I continued to look for ways to Share what I was finding, discovering, working on. Even though I didn't have a dime. I just kept on going.

In essence, I didn't let my fears and conditioning around money, keep me from having my Vision for the world, and for my life. My vision to be able to inspire people, to teach people, to touch the people around me to know how wonderful they are, to know that we can change all of this, if, we put our heart, soul and minds to the task at hand. And what is that task? I think very simply, to be happy, have fun, to take care of each other, to live in peace, and to take care of the natural world so we can enjoy it now, and into the future.

So what is my solution to the money game? Well, I don't know if I have it all figured out. And I don't think that I necessarily have to. What I do know, is that if we made this game, and if we continue to play in it, and continue to believe it is the only game in town, then it will continue to have its influence in the world. But I do believe it is changing, and changing quickly. The big banks, the Federal Reserve in the US, Euro, etc. are all getting a lot of press. I am not sure if it is not just another grand ponzi-scheme, like the depression, or the real estate scandal of 2008, and I don't want to waste my time and energy trying to figure it out. That, in my view, is a waste of my time and energy. I want to focus on what I want to create, what I want to see in the world. I have written about this in a number of essays posted at my blog. I guess today I will post some links to those in a sort of summary below.

What I can do today, personally, is to put my Vision first. To pursue what my heart is telling me to do. I have a number of things that I do in that regard. I read, Spiritual and uplifting books, I continue to work on the things that make me happy, the things that I feel I can do to make a difference, in my life, in the lives of others, that will help make the world a happier place.

I think, in many respects, we have come to feel that we can't do anything if we don't have money. We have a dream, but then we run into a roadblock when it comes to money. We start to add up costs for stuff we need and don't have, and then we stop. We think we have to go ask permission from the banker, or someone else to pursue our dream. Well, I would have died of boredom if I would have "sold out" to that idea. And, in this process of writing a 462 page book about my Vision, (as well as many, many other things) I have come to the conclusion that we have to put our dream, our vision first! - and then, trust that what we need to accomplish what our hearts tell us we should do, will show up. This is truly how we are supported every day. The air shows up, the sun continues to shine, our internal organs continue to function - like magic. And these same principles work in regards to currencies (that we call money).

Today I am deciding where my attention is going to go, and that is to the creative and wonderful things that I appreciate and am grateful for. I dedicate my time and energy to the powerful thoughts and feelings of joy I get when I think of my family and friends. I continue to refine my ideas about the things that I have been working on creating. I give (important choice of word - instead of pay) attention to those things that want to see in the world. And, I am also discovering that those possibilities are created inside of myself. That is where, as Jesus said "the Kingdom of Heaven" resides. When I find peace inside, I experience peace in my external world. When I learn to trust, and know that everything is progressing, is moving forward, as Wallace D. Wattles stated "the world is going to God, it is wonderful becoming", I find that my whole outlook and subsequent experience changes. And, amazingly, the only thing that changed, the one common-denominator, is me, my perspective!

In simple terms, how we can change the money system, is for people to realize that they cannot lie, cheat and steal to success. They know what they are doing. We can't hid from our secrets, we become those secrets, they end up dominating us.

And an economic system based on these ideas is doomed. We can take the great lessons, inspirations of people like Jesus, Buddha, Lao Tsu, Krishna, Ghandi, Albert Schweitzer and put our "civilization", or "livilization" on a basis of "Reverence for Life", the Golden Law (and How to Live). We can spend our time, as individuals, and in groups focusing on what we want to see in the world, peace, harmony, abundance for all, instead to the things that we would prefer to go away. We can be grateful and appreciative of the experiences that we have had that have brought us to this point in time, but we can learn the lessons that they have provided and keep doing the ones that we want to keep having, and leave the others behind. In other words, we can learn from our mistakes, and move onto the next evolutionary step in our development, as Divine co-creators, of an Infinite Loving presence that some call God, Infinite Mind, All That Is, Source, etc. We can learn to live and be Love in our day, with others, but especially with ourselves, because in the end, we, ourselves is the greatest gift that the Loving Infinite Creator has endowed us with, here and now, on this incredible paradise we call Earth.

I finished this message on Christmas Eve 2011, and was inspired to go back and review, and highlight some of the more interesting posts over the past few years, while I haven't earned a salary.

I am posting that message next, and it is on some ways connected to this post - see A Grand Review Christmas 2011

Love, Peace and Abundance
Andy

Eye Am Sharing

Eye Am Sharing

- Love Transcends

- "The Breath" is the Key, (Conscious Deep Breathing) The Practice (free Global Citizenship Passport)

- Intuition (the best book on this is "Living in the Light: a Guide to Personal and Planetary Transformation" by Shakti Gawain

- Actions guided by the Golden Law

- The Process of Creation, how it occurs, how Spirit creates (this is your life, whether you can see it or not). This little video provides insights and awareness of how life, as we know it came to be. You are consciousness. Consciousness creates in this way. The experiences that you have are related to the ideas, beliefs and experiences that you take with you as you move into new spaces and places.

- Freeing oneself from the challenges typically associated with money. Here is a very nice 8 minute meditation "Reconnecting with the Spirit of Money".

We are experiencers/creators.

You should ask yourSelf the question, "What do you really want?". and this is not your little self, but your true Self,

When you find "this key", the love in your heart, via the Breath, then you must find others to share the experience with. Assist them to find the treasure locked in their heart (kind of like a reverse "Pandora's Box).

Like this song, about life "Went to a Garden Party", every moment is a new moment to share. If we learn to follow our intuition, we will learn that when we "please ourSelf", our higher intuitive Self, to follow its guidance, we become part of the Divine, Harmonic symphonic orchestration, because Love is Guiding us. Whether we are aware or not.

Finally, to catalyze this process, I feel that Gaia, the Spirit of Mother Earth is pouring Love onto us in ways that we cannot imagine. So, connecting with this beautiful, sustaining Spirit will assist us to arrive at our desired, dreamed of destination, but the point is to enjoy the journey, moment to moment. Gaia's Message to Me

To find the peace within you, go within, and learn the truth of who you are. Peace Making

Compassion

Joy effervesces
from deep in my being,
as if from the atoms themselves.
The nature of my true life,
expressing itself,
untangling beliefs and ideas.
The light at an energetic level,
spiraling up, releasing, revealing,
silly perceptions introduced
into consciousness for a play.
An unread demonstration of possibility,
as thought ingrains alternatives
of things that just might be.
The ropes and chains of past prisons
cannot any more impede
the nature of life, the stuff we're made,
has as its purpose love.
But all is allowed its own expression,
the totality is endowed,
the possibilities are endless
the limits aren't defined.
Now my heart relinquishes
old patterns not endowed.
These old ideas just don't fit
my choice is one of joy,
and the idea to trust the process
is all that is required.
No worries, no pain, no fear.
For that which sustains,
is and always was,
giving me permission
to express what I see best.
The only issue was contradictions,
mis-understandings of what is.
But now emerging deep within me
the incredibly open mind,
the heart that has always compelled
no longer do I have to find
for it was always in me,
and it was never lost.
But now I realize the real truth,
that it is the heart of the One.

World Proclamation of Emancipation 2011

By Andrew N. Skadberg
February 20, 2011

Today marks the realization that we have within our reach the creation of a networked, Internet based tool-set to free humanity from the illusionary reality that it has imposed upon itself based on a mis-representation of the spiritual and intentional powers of human-beings.

Today, as a representative of the collective, human experience Eye proclaim and set forth in this document my realization that we have easily within our grasp the capabilities, skills, tools, resources and collective Will to solve all of the illusions of our collective sufferings: things like war, poverty, starvation, disease, strife, homelessness, and any other type of collectively created and supported concepts and mis-understandings that oppose the concept of Reverence for Life. These ideas are now history. History is only a reflection of the past. It does not exist. And our perspective as we understand it, and typically present it, is a reflection and is only a sliver of the truth of our collective experience. And we have habitually, as a collective, overemphasized what we collectively call “the negative”. This has perpetuated these experiences into our present, while also likely projecting those images into our future. They are not the truth. They are just a story that we have created which has been a form of entertainment, or a tool to teach us of our powers. But it is now time to let these things go. As we envision a new reality, and take the actions to use the tools at our disposal to accomplish the great re-creation we stand on the precipice of paradise on Earth.

As a sovereign being, a representative of our collective human family, I boldly state my intention today that the challenges listed above are all easily addressed. The potential means, and some details of how this might be accomplished, will be presented in a diagrammatic presentation below.

However, before these brief details are presented, Eye, as a catalyst, a Being who is a fully aware and conscious aspect of the multi-verse hologram, a Divine expression of the ONE, put forth the power of The Word, intention and attention, fueled by Love to bring into manifestation the elements that are presented. This presentation does not assume any particular order but to represent the broad array of opportunities for re-creation and emancipation. We will accomplish this profound consciousness change towards conscious evolution through: revitalization, education, improvisation, innovation, recreation, imagination, destination, commercialization, transportation, transmutation, catalyzation, vitalization, realization, technologization, experiementation, transformation, and visualization.

Eye now present this to the Universal Mind, and release all expectations and attachments to materiality to allow Spirit to manifest that which is in alignment with One Love and trust that the capabilities and capacities of the Universal Mind will easily accomplish all that is being invited to be created. Today marks the day that One Human Being, of the collective human experience, recognizes the power of the Word to transform. And the presentation of that intention to the Universal Mind will allow it to become manifest. With Great Love, So Be It!






Here is a brief description of the elements included in the above diagram.

Individual Empowerment and Collaborative Networking (Orange Box)
The center of this diagram shows the heart of the matter for re-creation. Empowering individuals and facilitation of collaborative networking is the foundation and starting point. By providing a simple set of tools, and the skill-set to use them, we will be able to transform the world one person at a time.

The World Self Management Institute
The Practice provides the connection to Spirit through each individual’s breath. As each person becomes conscious of their breath, and the other skills contained in The Practice, a catalyst ignites the powers of the Universal Mind.

Collaborative Networking – I Am Sharing
The next stage in online networking is collaborative networking, bringing people together to share, cooperate, have fun and “be the change they want to see in the world”. The collaborative networking model will provide the tools necessary to allow people to find other like-minded people to create new opportunities and collaborative projects. This component has significant documentation in addition to this introduction.

Tourism as an Initiator (Blue Box)
Tourism touches all aspects of the economic systems in the world today. So, it is a great vehicle for transformation. Also tourism is a harbinger for peace. The Internet is a tool that we can use to help us to make the most of the industry.

It is still paramount that the environment be protected. That can be accomplished by distributing tourism development as broadly as possible and utilizing proper planning methods to minimize impacts.

Travel Portal
Currently being called “YouTooTravel” this element will create a global portal for travelers to find and purchase (as long as we have the existing economic system) experiential travel.

Support to Travel Industry
Travel Talk Media is the natural solution to providing holistic information, services and media support and education to the various travel industry associations and communities.

Online Catalog
People like to purchase things when they travel. Additionally, small hand-crafts people, artisans, musicians, etc. need support to find people to purchase what the make. By creating an online presence and supporting via networking, marketing and education we can significantly enhance the economic situation of the people and the communities where they live. The key is to focus on getting “living wages” to these people and eliminate the exploitative production of things of very little value.

Accommodations Support
Providing “back-office” support for smaller accommodations will enhance the travel industry significantly. By gathering these entities together into a larger collaborative group we will be able to help them find customers and provide many other services through our educational and technology solutions.

Vacation Education
Based on a project that was already created to help people and families make the connection to quality learning and leisure pursuits. In addition to supporting travelers, teachers would find support and services to connect up with good experiential learning opportunities, and get guidance for how create quality programs.

Associations Support
The Internet is a powerful tool to support associations, in addition to their typical offerings for conferences and other programs. Creating a network of associations in the interest of serving the tourism industry, and all of the ancillary activities will be a powerful to organize and create a collaborative and cooperative atmosphere which is a much better model than competition.

Education/Community, Environment (Green Box)

Virtual Education – Institute – Experiential University
Empowerment starts with preparing people to learn, and find the resources and tools to help them transform their lives. The internet is the most powerful tool to support people to do this and to help them make their dreams come true. Our view is that the only way we learn is by doing, or through experiential education. And combining the power of the Internet, experiential education and practical resources is the future of education.

Sustainable Development and Communities – Honoring Our Mother Earth (HOME) Communities
Grass-roots revitalization in the interest of sustainability is happening around the world. Supporting this process by providing access to quality information, case-studies, and networking tools will enhance this process greatly. Additionally, linking these various communities, initiatives and organizations together into a larger global network will also accelerate this process.

Environmental Amelioration – Remote Sensing and Technology
Protecting and ameliorating the environmental impacts that humanity has imposed on the earth is the most important foundation of this entire proposal. Technology provides a tool-set to help us deal with the environmental challenges that we face as global family. Putting these tools to use is critical. Immense opportunities exist to implement many solutions that are facing the people of the world.

My Vision in a Nutshell

I made a decision to "change the world" in 2005, (for my children, when I knew much less than I do now, about vibrational energy and such) and revalidated it in 2007 - something like how Gandhi must have made a decision to free India or Norman Borlaug made a decision to feed everyone.

My understanding is that if we allow our connection to Gaia, to our Divine Mother to be made, we will find ourselves ushered into a more balanced way of being. I have been given insights that this process is really so simple - to relax and become re-aquainted, to be conscious of our breath, and know that each of us are the creators of our world.

So the process is quite simple, not complicated, because when we tap into our own breath and begin to treat ourselves with kindness and respect, and learn how our divine guidance program works, our feelings, we will be perfectly guided and then that re-creation will be guided like a Divine symphony to a realization of Peace and Harmony.

My aim, is to usher in this Peace, one person at a time. To empower each individual to know that truth of Love, and that they are that love, and they are motivated by that Love. There is nothing to fear, as all is in perfect order. I don't fear whether the sun will shine, or my molecules or the galaxies will hold together, why would I fear about the tiny systems that we, I guess a bunch of errant children, could somehow be outside of the Divine orchestration. So my Vision, is that we "re-create" the world into the paradise that we all know in our hearts can be. We can each create the world of our dreams that we have been afraid to state boldly, because there has been a lot of discouragement of such things. And by the way, there has been a purpose for that too - it is just difficult to grasp. All I know, that even all of the things I haven't liked have taught me a lot about Love, Service, Patience, Vision and a desire to be even a better Andy, each day. I continue to believe in "ever expanding possibilities" and as I do that I am happier and happier each day because I realize that what I was afraid of is not real, and that when I go through my fears I always find wonder and joy and mystery, and on and on it will go until I return to the One, complete.

Dear God - Todays Prayer for Peace

Today I pray to bring peace to the world in the following ways.

To breathe consciously and appreciate the gift of my life, and remember to be grateful. To teach people and help them really learn and believe in Reverence for Life. I visualize and take the actions I can to create governments and companies that are responsible for correct actions towards people and the Earth. I visualize and take actions for making technology and the media to be an instrument of Peace and Love providing entertaining, educational, and empowering messages to all people to empower them and bring Peace and harmony to the world. Today I visualize and take the actions to Share with people through my teaching the wonder and glory of the world and the cosmos and how special each person, each flower, each tree and each animal is. Today I visualize and take the actions to assist people to understand that we have made government and business and money and technologies to SERVE us, the people, and that the Spirit of Love guides all of life and our opportunity is NOW to create heaven on Earth - a paradise. Finally, I pray that all people understand how powerful, wonderful, beautiful and spectacular they are in the eyes of their God and the only way to find peace is in their own hearts and act governed by the Golden Law. "Do unto others, as you would have done unto you" - and this means all of Life.

With Peace, Andy

Excerpt Chapter 11 - A Lesson in Science, Alien Interview

ALIEN INTERVIEW
Based On Personal Notes and Interview Transcriptions Provided by :
Matilda O'Donnell MacElroy
Editing and Supplemental Footnotes by:
Lawrence R. Spencer

Pages 124-5

"Therefore, the most fundamental problems that must be solved in order to ensure that Earth will not be destroyed by technology, are social and humanitarian problems. The greatest scientific minds of Earth, in spite of mathematical or mechanical genius, have never addressed these problems.

Therefore, do not look to scientists to save Earth or the future of humanity. Any so-called "science" that is solely based on the paradigm that existence is composed only of energy and objects moving through space is not a science. Such beings utterly ignore the creative spark originated by an individual IS-BE and collective work of the IS-BEs who continually create the physical universe and all universes. Every science will remain relatively ineffective or destructive to the degree that it omits or devaluates the relative importance of the spiritual spark that ignites all of creation and life.

Unfortunately this ignorance has been very carefully and forcefully instilled in human beings by the "Old Empire" to ensure that IS-BEs on this planet will not be able to recover their innate ability to create space, energy, matter and time, or any other component part of universes. As long as awareness of the immortal, powerful, spiritual "self" is ignored, humanity will remain imprisoned until the day of its own, self destruction and oblivion.

Do not rely on the dogma of physical sciences to master the fundamental forces of creation any more than you would trust the chanted incantations of an incense burning shaman. The net result of both of these is entrapment and oblivion. Scientists pretend to observe, but they only suppose that they see, and call it fact.

Like the blind man, a scientist can not learn to see until he realizes that he is blind. The "facts" of Earth science do not include the source of creation. They include only the result, or byproducts of creation.

The "facts" of science to not include any memory of the nearly infinite past experience of existence.

The essence of creation and existence cannot be found through the lens of a microscope or telescope or by any other measurement of the physical universe. One cannot comprehend the perfume of a flower or the pain felt by an abandoned lover with meters and calipers.

Everything you will ever know about the creative force and ability of a god can be found within you -- an Immortal Spiritual Being.

How can a blind man teach others to see the nearly infinite gradients that comprise the spectrum of light?

The notion that one can understand the universe without understanding the nature of an IS-BE is as absurd as conceiving that an artist is a speck of paint on his own canvas. Or, that the lace on a ballet shoe is the choreographer's vision, or the grace of a dancer, or the electric excitement of opening night.

Study of the spirit has been booby-trapped by the thought control operation through religious superstitions they instill in the minds of men. Conversely, the study of the spirit and the mind have been prohibited by science which eliminates anything that is not measurable in the physical universe.

Science is the religion of matter. It worships matter. The paradigm of science is that creation is all, and the creator is nothing. Religion says the creator is all, and the creation is nothing. These two extremes are the bars of a prison cell. They prevent observation of all phenomenon as an interactive whole.

Study of creation without knowing the IS-BE, the source of creation, is futile. When you sail to the edge of a universe conceived by science, you fall off the end into an abyss of dark, dispassionate space and lifeless, unrelenting force. On Earth, you have been convinced that the oceans of the mind and spirit are filled with gruesome, ghoulish monsters that will eat you alive if you dare to venture beyond the breakwater of superstition.

The vested interest of the "Old Empire" prison system is to prevent you from looking at your own soul. They fear that you will see in your own memory the slave masters who keep you imprisoned. The prison is made of shadows in your mind. The shadows are made of lies, and pain, and loss, and fear.

The true geniuses of civilization are those IS-BEs who will enable other IS-BEs to recover their memory and regain self-realization and self-determination. This issue is not solved through enforcing moral regulation on behavior, or through the control of beings through mystery, faith, drugs, guns or any other dogma of a slave society. And certainly not through the use of electric shock and hypnotic commands!"

Realization of Self Love

This is a very personal description of a great discovery about self-love and the teachings of Jesus and the ten commandments.

About twelve years ago (1997), I was recovering from divorce. It turned out to be one of the most challenging times in my life. This process literally took years. I am not sure why I drug it out so long, but that was just the process. I mostly felt myself to have been a failure as a father. Not upholding the social agreement of marriage, mostly for the sake of my son.

I struggled a great deal financially, probably a form of self punishment. I also had periods of deep sorrow- even so far as contemplating the end of my life. I never went so far to actually do anything, just going to that place of desperate resignation. The most profound of these times I actually went to the place of no feelings. Ambivalence, numbness, not caring. That I discovered is a much more desperate and dangerous place than anger or depression.

When I was at the lowest place I was in my apartment and I picked up the Bible. Now, I have never read the Bible to any great extent. I have tried a number of times, but found the language difficult to comprehend. Plus I have come to believe that much of the greatest truths to have been culled out. However, I still believe that it is filled with great wisdom and truth, it is just difficult for me to decipher what might have been added or deleted. Not the best use of my time, this is my opinion.

However, on this occasion I opened up the book at random, dropped my finger on the passage where the disciples are asking Jesus to speak on the commandments, I remember reading "and what of the ten commandments"? And Jesus's response, in my recollection "There are only two. Love God with all your being. And Love your neighbor as yourself".

Reading this caused great realizations for me, and insights on my perspectives on love of self, and also my access to the love of God. You see, I read in that passage in the Bible, having a scientific mind, a case of deductive reasoning. The bottom line, or the basic challenge of Jesus' message relates to Self love. The deduction, or the leap of reasoning comes because he did not mention three points - 1) Love God, 2) Love Yourself, and 3) Love Your Neighbor as Yourself. The second step in this reasoning is missing.

Why? I assume that Jesus "assumed" that we would love ourselves. But is this the case in our world? I think mostly not. For many reasons - one is that it has become "tabu" in many ways to "Love ourselves" (e.g. narcissism, arrogance, selfishness). However, as I have since discovered, if I don't harbor Love in my heart for myself, how can I truly Love others? And I am not talking about "selfish" love. I'm talking about the Love for God and for all others. For if I truly Love Andy in the true sense of Love then I do not have to worry about selfish love. My brother-in-law many years ago (1981) confronted me on this. I think I said something him to about loving my girlfriend more than I loved myself. And he replied, "Andy how can you expect others to Love you, if you don't Love yourself?" This I have realized over the years is one of the most powerful questions a person can ask - either of themselves, or of a dear one.

This reverie from the quote from Jesus made me think why I might have arrived at the point of not Loving myself. I thought that it probably had something to do with pain - and pain being a sign of being excluded from God's Love, which to me is the greatest fear. Much greater than the fear of death. (a little digression, imagine the world of people living day to day their greatest fear as their truth!)

I thought back to my first unconscious "comprehension" of God - which would have been my parents. They were bigger than me, took care of all my needs, protected me, loved me. But did they love me when they punished me? I think I came to understand/feel that when I did "bad", I was being excluded from Love. When I felt pain, either external or internal, I began to separate myself from Love. I began to believe that I could actually do something and become un-Lovable. A ridiculous notion as I understand today, but for most of my life I believed, I felt this. As my friend Tom says "little Andy", had programmed this idea into the very core of my being. This is the idea that the church has placed on us. The idea of "original sin", or at least the way that I interpreted it. And, if I look at many people in the world, I think others believe it too.

In any case, I examined this idea of doing things, and being "out of Love". And it explained my behaviors. You see, once I was out of Love, or had excluded myself consciously, it doesn't matter. Bad in degrees is immaterial. And, because of the internal pain, the need to blot it out became more and more necessary. Thus, in my case, I turned to drugs and alcohol as a young person. However, at the time of this experience reading the Bible, in 1997, I had been 16 year sober.

I think I somehow got the idea or belief that if I felt pain, I wasn't being Loved. Of course it started with my parents, but then I think it extended to God, and of course to everyone. Because, how or why would I feel pain (which is "bad") if I was Loved?

Pain is a sign of being a "sinner" and "sinners" can't be Loved by God, right? Because we have to become an "un-sinner" for God to really Love us, right? We have to become totally clean to be accepted into the Love of God. And this only happens when you "do something", and are transformed into being "white as snow". But if I feel pain inside, then I feel that I am the same. I know that this is not the case, and this seems like a very childish way of understanding. However, I think this childish "program" was actually running in my life - it explained my behaviors.

In truth, I do not think God condemns. It is a man made construct, like so many other concepts that have imprisoned us - but these are OK, because there is a purpose to all.

I also realized at this moment that pain is not "bad". It is merely an aspect on a continuum. And, in actuality, it can be very, very good. In fact, it was deep and desperate pain that lead me to "no pain", no cares, no feeling which was the stimulus for all of these epiphanies about "Self Love". And in that moment, and in previous moments, I realized that "pain" can be exquisite. And then I wasn't sitting in judgment about my feelings, about my actions, which would result in me being excluded from God's Love, which is not possible.

Whether I consciously bought into the idea of "sin" and condemnation, I think at some level I believed that I had done things that had placed me out of God's Love. Divorce.

Abandoning my son (this was my "programmed" belief). Having a tendency to be somewhat
of a "womanizer". But this actually tied to my own condemnation of myself. It became a self fulfilling prophecy. It was like, OK, I'm already a "screw-up" (a sinner) so fuck it! And I had come to believe that I was the kind of person to do those things. So, if I believe myself to be that kind of person, how could I do anything else? But in reality all I was doing in that process was trying to find love. Love from others. Love to fill the void in me. But no other person can ever fill that void. Because that was a void created by my lack of Love for my Self.

And I think Loving my Self first is actually one of the most gracious things that I could ever do. I am God's first gift to me. To my person. This physical, spiritual and intellectual being was God's gift to me first. And from there, all other expressions arise, at least in my conscious experience.

I realized this in another way a few years ago when I heard the song by Bad Company "Feel like making Love". I realized that we are supposed to be "Love factories". But how could I generate Love if I don't have the first ingredient - Love for the being, the gift that God gave me - me, myself and I. Isn't it a tremendous lack of gratitude to not love what God gave me, first?

Through all of this thinking I realized that "Self love" was to "Love God with All My Being" - and that if I could accomplish Self Love in the most pure and profound way, then "Love Others as Your Self" would flow naturally and effortlessly. That was the "missing deduction" in Jesus's statement about there only being two commandments.

I also realized that maybe, these feelings, were God experiencing itself through me. I imagined my joys, sorrows, and the agelessness of the feelings. I imagined how my body, and my mind seem to age, but my feelings don't. I thought of the loves and deepness of those profound feelings that I had experienced in my life and felt that that truly was a God living through me. And those forces are the ones that have motivated me, truly to seek Love with all my being. To be Love in all ways that I can.

So what next? Forgiveness. Yes, but if God doesn't condemn why would I need forgiveness?

I don't really know, but for me at that (and this) moment, the forgiveness was to know that God's Love was immediately available to me - all-ways, always. It happened to me long ago when I realized my life was in the "shitter", I was a drunk and a junkie, mostly because of my dishonesty with myself. When I had this realization that dishonesty had created my twisted little life, and admitted I was lying, and committed to take a different path, and said the prayer "God help me". My life began to be totally different.

All I had to do, I guess, was to accept the Love to flow. It was there waiting. I didn't grow any new Love acceptance organs.

Oh, you may be thinking, why do I say that God doesn't judge - well for me, it's about Love. Love Loves it doesn't judge. And if God is Love then God doesn't judge. God just Loves.

So what I had to do at that moment was look at Andy, and see him for who he was, and just appreciate that he never meant to hurt anyone - on purpose. That many times he was confused, and did things that resulted in apparent "problems" but that those really don't matter to Love. That no matter what I think that I do that is bad, and no matter how bad I might feel, I am always Loved by God. Period. There is no way out of it. It is everywhere and always.

And today, I have learned more and more about my feelings and their connection to the Divine. That they are actually the "program" the "guidance system" that I was given in order to know how to avoid doing the things that were contrary to my, and others, best interest. But I didn't learn this until about 2 years ago.

Love Transcends

At this time there is nothing else that really matters. To discover your love. This is imperative if you want to feel the freedom you so seek. This is not a matter of finding love around the corner, or in someone´s arms, but to discover that it resides in your own heart, and that it always has.

This love is why you came here. To find it, experience it and share it. That is your purpose. The love is unconditional, it is un-stoppable, it is, ultimately, undeniable. But it is the most challenging quest that you will ever embark upon – especially in your world.

The game as it has been orchestrated has drawn your attention to innumerable distractions – other objectives that seem to be paramount. But this is not the case. The foundation of all activity in this cosmos is based on love. It is the prime ingredient to be assured that what you create is in alignment with the One´s design.

Discovering this can be one of the most elusive tasks that you might take on. Living as a human being on the Earth at this time in your history is leading to “the great rub”. This is the point where it becomes an either or choice for acting from a place of unconditional love, or something else. The something else(s) have increased in so many forms and so much intensity of energy as to be especially distracting.

Your world speaks of love more than any single idea. Yet your understanding of its true nature is so misunderstood. It is really the most simplest, and actually the only truth in your world. It is at the bottom, and behind all of the experiences that you are orchestrating and so distracted with the details. The experiences are all accessories to the point. And the point is love. Can´t you see that all of this creative wonder that you observe in your external perceptions is the result of love? And you will step beyond the production of material trinkets when you discover that the love power you are so yearning to express exists in the core of your being. When you discover this love you will realize that there is nothing to “own” or “possess” or to hold onto because what you so yearn for is the makeup of your actual being. It is what is holding all of the molecules of your body together. It is what is containing all of the information in your DNA and blood. The thoughts that you have are supported, contained within the love matrix, the One´s thoughts. But you are a thought filled being and have the same capacities.

But your task in this life is to discover, not the One´s love, or someone else´s love, but your love. Go to that place inside yourself and discover the spark of the love that created you. That you are to share – that is your purpose. That is the One´s purpose for you. That is why you stepped into this existence.

You have been clear on this idea for longer than you could ever imagine, before you came into this form. But the veil, the curtain had to be heavy in order for us to discover some new characteristics of this thing that we share in all points and waves across infinity.

You have been a wonderful agent in this life, investigating distractions, diversions, untruths of how love might express itself – “I will love you if”, “share your love if you get paid”, “looking for love in all the wrong places”. My what an adventure you have created.

But the time has come for you to get down to business. Enter your own heart and find the spark, that WE put there. Yes, you were a designer of this system too. You were the architect, as was Eye. But you had primary input. You had the experiences in the realms of love across the cosmos and instructed us in the design of this new adventure space called “Earth” and the universe. But you have been pulled from the core of its knowing – this is evidenced by the state of your world. You have forgotten your truth birth mother, Gaia, and you abuse those around you with the distractions of what you think are obligations you believe are a result of love – obligations that have been placed on you in the game that you are playing.

If you would have been informed as a baby about the task of finding your own divine spark to then share this with the world, you would have found a very different experience. But we had a purpose for it to play out in this exact way. But now, now my dear comrades, associates, partners, MY BEING, the time is quickly approaching for the quickening. I am sure you feel it. Don´t you feel kind of crazy? Do you feel time passing quickly? That is the true quickening. It is love beckoning. And the only place you will find peace of mind, is discovering your true nature and that that power to transform the entire cosmos in the “twinkle of an eye” resides at the center of your being.

Now how you experience or find this spark can be as varied as you see yourselves as beings. There are some pointers. One possibility is to find another soul who vibrates, or resonates on an energetic level and begin to immerse yourself into an investigation of this love. Invite that other person to find their love. Invite yourself to examine what it is that makes you tick – what inspires, how do you really feel about the people in your life that you love. This is not about the “stories” and dramas and traumas that are playing out in yours or their lives, but the core of the connection to them. This may require some effort to get past the surface experience which you are lost in on a day to day basis. This requires a sense of deep meditation, but not necessarily in the image you have been given, such in a sitting lotus posture. You can examine your heart in all moments. While you walk, while you lay, as you gaze into a child´s eyes. As you look in the mirror at yourself. As you write, or listen to a song. The sources, or access points, to the love in your own heart are as innumerable as the moments in your day. But, you must dedicate your conscious attention to them. You must reflect on them.

Many of you find yourselves pulled away in the stream of external life. But this is not the external world´s fault. This is an expression of where you are in yourself. If you are struggling and finding yourself overwhelmed, in any area of your life, it is love´s invitation to take a look. It is you that is saying – is this what you want? Love is so close and inviting you to examine what you want to create. It is inviting you go to your love and have it show you the way to your own joy, your own “master plan” – which you designed and imprinted, with love, into the core of your very makeup. Physically it is easiest to find this if you work with your heart area. That is where this expression is most powerfully emanating moment to moment as your heart beats and cascades the essence of your love through your blood throughout your body. There is a cosmic, and eternal energy pulse with our Divine signature that the entire cosmos is waiting for you to find, key into, and then express the results as this program turns on and takes over your existence. When this event occurs there will be no turning back, and you will begin to reveal to yourself the true nature of your cosmic being. Showing yourself, via your own unique love quotient, the path that you had laid down for yourself eons ago, in fact in many respects back to the moment your soul was conceived in the beginning from my Divine Love blueprint.

This experience will reveal to you just how spectacular you are, and thusly, as only the love model allows, you will begin to see the divinity of all that exists. All of this was created for this knowing, but the fact could not be fully appreciated until there was a thorough and complete forgetting. As you likely have discovered in your human form, we often take for granted that which is given to us without effort. Thus, this is not a unique experience to humanity on Earth, and this is specifically why we decided to create this world – and it has been the most phenomenal success!!!!

You, my dear ones, have ventured into the depths of new experiences that were not imagined before this. And the cosmic consciousness will be able to process and include each and every experience into the collective. And now your rewards for your dedicated service is to be granted, but there is one last effort that you must do. Find your heart. Find your Love. Experience it. Go to it. Embrace it. Allow it to embrace you. It is all-ready, you must know, but bring this experience into your conscious mind. FEEL IT – do whatever you must to experience this truth of who and what you are, because if you don´t, you will continue with the same results you are experiencing.

I emplore you to give this your utmost consideration and dedication. Because you will be astounded to find out that this thing, that you have been yearning and searching for, you have been dancing and singing for, you have been suffering and crying for, is embedded into the fabric of your being down to the most minute level. It is who you are, and nothing less. It is your DNA, it is your bodily parts, it is the functions, it is the Being that you are, and it is closer than anything else. But your consciousness must entertain it. You must open a doorway to it, because if you don´t you will remain locked in the prison of your perceptions, your beliefs, your thoughts and your habits. Those, dear one, are not you. None of those things – and you will be overjoyed to discover the truth of what is being shared with you.

This process, will have its way with you no matter what. The difference will be, do you want to experience it now, in this body where you believe you reside, in this stage of your life. Do you want to share the most astoundingly beautiful gifts with all those you “believed” that you “love and cherish”? Do you want to experience this? This is your most important assignment. This is why you agreed to come to this sphere of existence. This is why you were made, and why you made yourself. And, the time has come to find this truth within your being and Share it.

Be happy. Because you are so beautiful. Drop all beliefs about your experiences, ideas you have been given, and give yourself a chance to experience the pure essence of the love that you are truly made of. All of these things that you are afraid to face about yourself is what you have contributed to the cosmic database of experiences. It is very important. But there is no meaning in it any longer, as the time has come for the great reckoning, beckoning, love inviting you home to yourself. Because, in the end this is what you have been looking for. You are your own answer. Your own destination. Your own love source, that once found will be shared with every other being across creation – and it will be there forever, for that is the nature of how love works. It is pure, kind, gracious, patient, powerful and any other positive attributes that you might use. But more importantly, it is yours. You have never been without it. There was no need to fear. But to appreciate what has been going on, or how great this thing is, you had to know what it would be like for the “possibility” for love not to be cascading in infinite abundance over your soul and being. You had to experience this, for the ONE. It has been necessary for this, and you have done GOOD!

Tribute to Laurie Skadberg

Tribute to Laurie Skadberg
July 30, 1953– May 30, 1985

My sister passed before I wanted her to. However, the impact of her, my memories of her and what I realized from her death have very much shaped my life and my commitment to my own life. She still, after 22 years, is fresh in my mind. And that is good. Laurie was an amazing person. And this book is partly about sharing her impact on my life and hopefully the lives that have been touched subsequently.

I just found this letter and poem in 2007. I don't remember writing it. I believe the year must have been 1996 or 1997. I was suffering from chronic back pain that regular doctors had no remedy for. I went to a wonderful kinesiologist named Ann and that began my recovery, which essentially was that I had acquired an allergy to wheat. The poem pretty much speaks for itself.

The letter I wrote is included first. Now I'm glad to report I think that allergy is going away - it is nice to be healing.

Sometime in 1997.
My sister Laurie committed suicide May 30, 1985. This experience contributed to my growth as a person in so many ways. Every year for about 12 years, around the anniversary of her death, I dealt with considerable issues until I discovered a book entitled "Closer to the Light", a book of several case-studies of near death experiences. It relieved a great deal of the suffering, However, Laurie is still very close in my mind. I even had another direct contact from her in 2008. That story is relayed in the blog posting "Laurie's Angel" (p. 38).

This letter was with the poem that I wrote to Laurie in 1997.

Dear Laurie,
I’m sorry. I can’t believe it has been so long that I am still working through your death. What a mix of confusing feelings. I still am mad that you killed yourself and then on the other hand I feel like I may have been at fault. I am sorry that I didn’t write to you. When I used the excuse that I didn’t like to write to you because it made me miss you – I think there was some truth.

However, I also felt like I was lying too. I was confused. I think at some level I was just too lazy to write.

Recently I realized that I have some guilt that maybe by me not writing that you didn’t feel that you were loved and that’s why you killed yourself. Intellectually, I am pretty sure that is not the case and I know no matter what I must let go of the guilt of the past. And I know that you would not want me to punish myself anymore for what has long passed. But, I have been punishing myself unconsciously for a long time – I think.

I don’t understand any of this stuff because there seems to be no logical understanding of it.

However, the emotions and the memories continue to arise and it seems that for me to set myself free I need to do the same thing.

Not too long ago I realized what a beautiful contribution you made to my life. And you didn’t even know it. The music you left behind helped me to decide to try to work toward love. You’re music became my music and still is the foundation of my preferences today.

Another realization I had was that my using started and ended very close to your departure and return from Norway. I don’t know if there is a direct correlation but the two would appear to have some relationship.

Just today I had another realization about you rescuing me from Phyllis. I had a lot of emotions come up about Devon and having to tell someone else what was happening. It brought up a lot of memories/feelings from deep inside me. Like it was my own pain coming out. I realized that you rescued me from a situation that might have made me an angry, bitter person. Thank you.

I miss you Laurie. I would have liked to have known you better. And I’m really sorry if I let you down. How did you make the angel happen?

Today I want to set myself free. I went to my chiropractor today and you came up again, together with a lot of emotions. This lady is very special and she said I need to ask You, God and myself to forgive myself. And she said I need to forgive you.

I don’t really believe that God condemns and I don’t think you had any hard feelings towards me but I believe I have condemned myself. I have carried a guilt for you, Devon and Arlis. And I think I punish myself by my lifestyle with how I handle money and how I let my God shine from me. I want to set myself free. So I am writing you and God and me this letter to bring this about. I am asking God to help me forgive you – if I haven’t. And I am asking that you and God forgive me and for me to allow you to forgive me, if that is necessary, and finally for me to forgive myself. Please help me to let all of God’s love in.

Love,
Andy

Writing Poetry
I used to write poetry.
I liked it when my sister and mother said they were good.
Then my sister went away.
She wrote poetry.
She was an artist.
I don't think I wrote any more poetry.
My sister died.
She hung herself.
I couldn't imagine writing poetry
I've cried.
I miss my sister.
I saw a doctor today.
My back was hurting.
We cried together - I don't really know why.
She said she asked my body a question.
Then she felt very sad.
She told me to forgive.
She told me to ask for forgiveness.
And to let myself to be forgiven.
I don't think God condemns.
I do - but I'm trying not to.
I wrote my sister a letter.
I didn't write her when she went away.
I told her things I could remember.
I remember more.
My sister was my friend.
I asked for forgiveness and to forgive.
Is this a poem?

One on One

From my two books "I Am Sharing: Thoughts, Experiences and Learning About Love and Service", and "Poetry and Essays About Life, Love and One."

Life is really about us working out our relationship with ourselves. Is she the One? (the ultimate question from the movie the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy), or (Am I the One). A part of us knows that everything is the one but this world seems to be a testing ground for how far will love go and still love.

The "issue" in process is just me rectifying the issues between my prior perceptions that there are things other than me, my coming out of this program which has been emotionally ingrained, habituated. If I accept that there is only one thing here, then why do I have all of these issues with myself? At first I cannot discover this by watching others, but after I come to realize the issues are really in me, then the evidence is incontrovertible - it's in my face. All I have to do is realize that each time I find myself emotionally charged (typically negative) I am confronting an old program that is attached to my old perceptions of things being outside (separate) of me. It boils down to me rectifying my perceptions of my relationship to the One.

Why would One punish Oneself? Love doesn't punish, so at those places that I discover conflict or experience pain it is actually a "learning point". When I discover a learning point what happens, or how I deal with it, demonstrates going to the Truth or some other reality, some segmented part of the One. The Kingdom of God is Within Me comes from becoming absolutely clear intellectually and emotionally with all the other parts of the One - to love it. It is either the way I want it, or it has a lesson for me for my growth. If I am experiencing negative emotions it is either contradictory to my greater good or it is triggering a dysfunctional part of my prior programming.

All evidence points to the truth. All evidence points to the truth there is only One. However, it has divided itself into many aspects/parts. Why would One thing punish itself? To experience something other than One-ness. It wouldn't really punish itself because it really serves no purpose because it already knows.

So the purpose is to create many different parts, let them forget, and then discover, or go back to that knowing. The thing about earth is the density, the intensity of the experience and the number of possible divergences, dead-ends, or detours is innumerable.

However the choice really comes down to a simple one - am I choosing the true path or something else? And the true path is illumined by Love. Why would I abuse myself if I knew the Truth? I wouldn't. So why do I abuse myself and others? Because I don't understand. I don't realize the truth. I should not punish myself, the pain and suffering is Love guiding me toward it. It is my job to determine at any moment whether I am making the right choice or not. It comes down to a very simple "either, or" choice.

The truth (love), or not. And if I am clear about my emotional conditioning, if I have done the work to examine the familial and cultural programming that choice will become simpler and simpler over time. The challenge is not to fall into another "program" that creates another intellectual or emotional cul-de-sac.

Love´s Embrace

Loves Embrace

if we could only see

how much love embraces us

we would never be ashamed

never seek to blame

surrounds us

envelopes us

creates us

it is our divine decree

to be

this love that abounds

this is what our life was meant to be

to be free

to love one another

to share the deep cosmic truth

that seeks to express

itself

in our life

My Shadow, My Power

June 12, 2010

Life has guided me
Without my knowing
Inexorably toward some destination
I cannot see where
But now I know, it does not matter
Because all that I have gone through
Is where I was supposed to go
What I believed has now revealed,
itself to be an illusion
I believed the stories I was told
Thinking too I entered a prison
One contained in the story
of suffering, war, starvation
The valley of the shadow of death
Is the reflection of my own thoughts
Those I needed to entertain
Possessed as a spirit in a ghost
The ghost of my thinking world
Disconnected from the Spirit of life
The ever present energy of life
Pulsating, expanding, omniscient
This is the Truth
But to really know life
I had to experience something else
This “other” created in my mind
A “reality” situated outside of Love
Somehow floating, entertaining my mind
With an eternal cacophony of chaos
Thoughts in a void
But this is not me
It all is me, I am one with the One
But One cannot experience One until
There is something other
So in this way I too
have been playing a game
Discovering the power
In my ability to create
Realities in thought apart
From Truth ever present
Of Love´s eternal grace
The Source of my Being is Love
Together immersed in the One
But to appreciate this ecstatic state
I had to have of none
The futility of a thought reality
Attached to a dream
This is the shadow of the valley
Or those dancing on the walls
But when I turned around I found
The truth of being ever one
This is my freedom I´ve been seeking
No place else but here and now.

A Real Opportunity - Time to Change - the Media

I had an idea. Rupert Murdock has organized probably 25,000 media outlets. They are all delivering his messages that highlight conflict. We can see, dream, visualize, believe possible for these to be converted to sending the message of Love. God does the work, we just need to believe. Plant this idea in the minds of many people, make it their desire - like Ghandi did in India.

Like Louise Hay - we don't have to work on the problems themselves just Loving ourselves and the individual problems melt away.

Imagine a world where our world is a beautiful place, our little dreams come true but also where all the institutions are transformed into doing, serving the way intended, or they go away.

Convert Rupert's networks into the Miracle Network sending messages of the Glory of God to the world - eliminating fear and the idea of separation. Use the Internet to deliver useful tools to deliver information to people to help them transform their world.

My Love if you exist, the One. If this love exists. We can change the world! We just need to visualize and believe God that we deserve it. God can do it. Are we deserving? - Yes, can we be passionate about it?

The corporations and military have done the hard work. We just have to believe, visualize and know it is to be received. Here are some random thoughts

- John Lennon’s song “Imagine”.
- We just don't get in the Lime Light, is not about who gets credit.
- We can write short books instead of long books
- get to the point
- Sorry this letter is so long but I didn't have time to write a short one - Twain
- we are inundated with information now we need to start sifting through the haystack to
put ideas to work
- we get lost chasing $
- it's about love not money - where love flows money will follow
- vibrational in nature (radio analogy)
- quantum soup - God's mind
- everything is vibrating, sending signals through the Matrix or the mind of God
- The part where we get stuck is history, allowing, believing we deserve

"There is no place that I would rather be than right here right now as the world wakes up from history" - Jesus Jones

"Waiting for the world to change" - John Mayer

- History has no bearing on the present except contrast, what we do or don't want, but it can be a slippery slope, a trap

Right now the media and institutions, including churches are playing a "shell game" distracting us from the "truth". The truth is Love. Only Love.

We need to wake up, realize that we've been playing a game we don't want to play any more. Walk out of the video arcade. Wake up to the fact that our collective beliefs have created the world we live in. Take responsibility without blame and make the simple decision to change the world. Then ask, believe and then visualize and believe that that
world is. God is waiting.

People might think it will be boring. Why do we think war, famine, disease is not boring?

It's not entertainment but we have made it to be. The Glory of creativity is so phantasmical, so stupendous, so wonderful it is beyond belief. When one, just one of your dreams comes true your imagination will be fired to "create" the world, life of your (our) dreams. God, the universal mind will come to your aid and make that world - if you believe,
know that it can be.

It is really that simple.

DO GOOD!

There are so many books we can't find the answer. So much stuff on the Internet we can't see the forest for the trees. It is as though we are on a beach looking for a particular grain of sand. The truth is actually "in" any grain of sand, any blade of grass, tree, person, insect, animal, star.

Love is! So let it be. Wake up from the dream and begin to dream the new dream based on the truths of the ages.

There is no right or wrong - there is just One but it expresses itself in the wonder we see in nature and the cosmos, but we somehow believe that we are not part of it, or that we have been forgotten. But we haven't, there's only Love. It is waiting. Patiently, but not so patiently any more. The "bad" dream is going too far. We all have a guardian angel - many call it God - but it is not what you think it is. There is not one way - except through your own heart. You can make up your mind what you believe. That is your divine right. If someone tells you you can't, they are mistaken. The great gift is to Live and Love and we are all making it up as we go along. That is the beauty of it and, it is beautiful! It's supposed to be fun!

Live! Love! Laugh!

Good

Journal entry August 25, 2009

Had a great chat with Tom about 1 thing – GOOD

- Here I am going to cite all of the ways that I can relate to this idea,
   in fact has been a theme resounding in my life for many years.
- Do Good – Nike/Google
    o Life is Good LG symbol.
- Rectifies judgement issue – all goes back to 1 thing.
- My own insights that all apparent evil only exists in human “reality”
   war, famine, disease, actually all demonstrates how powerful we
   are to create against the flow of creation.
- When I observe nature I see no evil.
- Returning to One is the only way to make sense, why would God
   show us the amusement park or candy store but not allow us to go
   there and experience it.
- Analogy of a video game.
- We are playing monopoly here on Earth.
- Computer analogy, dual operating memory but it is really only one
   that mimics duality.
- We have gotten lost down the path of duality.
- Invite people to examine the most tragic, painful experience and not find the good.
- It is about processing, contemplating, evaluating experience.
- Emmett Fox – contemplation is the highest form of meditation.
- The tragic experiences in alcoholics, criminals and people´s lives are what are pushing them to go
   back the other way.
- God is everything.
- God is Good.
- Everything is Good.
- I am Good.
- I bring Good to the World.
- My heart and all of my being comes from God, so I am all Good.
- I will entertain only Good in my experience which is in everything.
- I will not, do not fear death because if it did exist, which it really doesn´t, it is so Good there is nothing
   to be afraid of.
- If dying is the worst thing that can happen to me, which is really Good, what am I making such a big
   deal about?
- My nature is based on infinite Good.
- Need to figure out ways for people to get this into their consciousness – relate to the larger
   experiences of their lives but then to the day to day.
    o Tragic experience, what was the result?
    o Each and every experience it Good.
- Only Good exercises.
- Know that all is one Good, that expresses itself in infinite forms of Good – no matter what judgment
   has previously been attached to it.