Be-Coming

Be or do? 

Be. Do to Be. 

What to be? 

Be Your God. 

Don't like your God? - change your ideas about God. 

Define God as you prefer, with all of the right attributes. 

Then Be those attributes. 

Know truth - what do we know? "
   Law of ONE" - We are One.
   The Breath is the movement/manifestation of the ONE.

Life is a metaphor - various expressions are just expressions of the ONE's variety. We can use the same ideas, processes - maybe in reverse, to make the world, life we want.

Find out what you are working with.
You are your first project. - like a living sculpture.
  What are you working with?
  How do you work? - like how God made you.
What is your purpose? - You decide, but it may be to make the most beautiful sculpture.
How do you find out who and what you are?
Study - like in school. What to study? - books, I do have some suggestions, but it's up to you.
- watch for information overload though -

How to Think.
   What are you made of?
   How does energy, thought create?
   What are you thinking?
   What are your senses for?
   What are your feelings for?
   What are emotions?

   How do you get things done now?
   Do you assess context, or not?
   What are you going to do?
   Make a decision to do something.
   Do you need tools?
   Do you need skills?
   Choice is one of your tools.
   Choose the steps you are going to take.
   Take action - if you make a wrong choice, or action, reassess - change direction.

I could give any number of metaphors, analogies or similes - sailing a boat, landscaping, writing a letter. In order to do anything, we make provisions, plans.

We use these tools, processes, skill-sets in the tasks throughout our day but very few people apply them to the greater context of our life, (e.g. health, happiness, contentment) to our family, to our community, to society, our job.

Processing is learning from our mistakes - stopping insanity - defined as: "doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results".

Whether you know it or not there is no chance - no random occurrences - the ONE is very deliberate - and You are One.

When life presents you an opportunity - take it. One way or another, then deal with the results, repercussions.

Most people live their lives without a real central purpose, or mission. They may not have really thought about it.

We have not been taught this in school or church - explicitly - maybe cryptically.
I don't think most people understand.

If Jesus is your God - Be Jesus - or if that scares you - Be LIKE Jesus. But here's a tricky thing - if you are afraid of being Jesus - why are you afraid?

Fear is not really truth - unless you decide you want that as your God - your life, your experience. If Love is your God - Be Love. Love and fear are not compatible. They can't exist in the same space without a problem arising.

Love is Truth.

Decide the course that the ship of your life is going to take. Imagine looking back at the end of your journey, your life, asking the question "what have I created?" "Am I happy with what I am looking at?"

Have I been the captain of my ship or just a coal shoveler? Do I know everything about my ship? - how it works? - what it can do? Can I fix it if it breaks?
Do you have a map to help you? A compass?, etc.
I think you get the point.
But You and Your life are much more spectacular than being a captain of a ship. You can sail a ship, drive a bus, fly an airplane, write a poem, paint a picture, play with your kids, cook dinner and make love -
- All this in just one day!

Each Now moment is another opportunity.

Do you know who and what you are?
Do you have the right skill-sets?
Do you have the tools to do what you want to do?
Do you have a plan? Is it written down - and you can always make adjustments - just like you do when you walk somewhere.

Life is about experiences. No one can judge your experiences (except you if you choose). God doesn't judge your experiences IT is experiencing them. That is your purpose - at some level, to experience stuff for God. What do you want to Share with God? What do you want to do to God? What do you want to give to God? What do you want to Be for God?

If you really aspire those things to happen then stop "wanting" and Be those things, in your mind (in actuality you already ARE those things you just don't re-member, yet) and after you Believe you can Be that then you will begin to do those things. And the great thing is, if you don't get it right, then you can try again, and again, and again, and again ad infinitum.

And another great thing is that during that process you can be learning and experiencing a whole lot of stuff. Which will grow your character which is another purpose of life.
Then as you continue to Be like the God you believe your God to Be you will continue on this fantastic journey, moment by moment, experience by experience to Be that God that you believe your God to Be. In truth you already are that God - even though you might not know or believe. 

 So, how are you gonna Be You today?
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Ancillary quotes:

"To Be or not to Be, that is the question" Shakespeare

"God is either everything or he is nothing" Alcoholics Anonymous - my answer - both, and neither.

"We thus have the Mandukya Upanishad that explains the paradox that Brahman is all and Brahman is nothing or no-thing" (1)

"But the nearest conception of Brahman we can have is to say that it is a state of consciousness beyond time when SAT, CIT and ANANDA, Being and Consciousness and Joy are ONE. (2)

"As Atman, the Self in each one of us and in all is Brahman, God the Highest in us and in all we might say that the problem of the moral law in the Upanishads is solved by fulfilling the words of Shakespeare in Hamlet. For 'self', however, we should understand 'Self'.
   "This above all - to thine own self be true. And it must follow, as the night the day. Thou canst then be false false to anyone". (3)

"It will be seen that the lofty doctrines of the Upanishads are doctrines for the few: the Himalayas of the Soul are not for all. Men want a simple concrete God, or even a graven image of a god. They want a rule of life, and above all they want love. The later seers of the Upanishads saw this and in the Isa Upanishad we have ideas that we also find in the Bhagavad Gita Because of its importance it should be quoted in full:

  Behold the Universe in the glory of God: and in all that lives and moves on earth. Leaving the transient, find joy in the External: set not your heart on another's possession.
  Working thus, a man may wish for a life of a hundred years. Only actions done in God bind not the soul of man.
  There are demon-haunted worlds, regions of utter darkness. Whoever in life rejects the Spirit goes to that darkness after death.
  The Spirit, without moving, is swifter than the mind; the senses cannot reach Him: He is ever beyond them. Standing still, He overtakes those who run. To the ocean of His being the spirit of life leads the streams of action.
  He moves, and He moves not. He is far, and He is near. He is within all, and He is outside all.
  Who sees all beings in his own Self, and his own Self in all beings, loses all fear.
  When a sage sees this great Unity and his Self has become all beings, what delusion and what sorrow can ever be near him?
  The Spirit filled all with His radiance. He is incorporeal and invulnerable, pure and untouched by evil. He is the supreme seer and thinker, immanent and transcendent. He placed all things in the path of Eternity.
  Into deep darkness fall those who follow action. Into deeper darkness fall those who follow knowledge.
  One is the outcome of knowledge, and another is the outcome of action. Thus have we heard from the ancient sages who explained this truth to us.
  He who knows both knowledge and action, with action overcomes death and with knowledge reaches immortality.
  Into deep darkness fall those who follow the immanent. Into deeper darkness fall those who follow the transcendent.
  One is the outcome of the transcendent and another is the outcome of the immanent. Thus have we heard from the ancient sages who explained this truth to us.
  He who knows both the transcendent and the immanent, with the immanent overcome death and with the transcendent reaches immortality.
  The face of truth remains hidden behind a circle of gold. Unveil it, O god of light, that I who love the true may see!
  O life-giving sun, offspring of the Lord of creation, solitary seer of heaven I Spread thy light and withdraw thy blinding splendor that I may behold thy radiant form: that Spirit far away within thee is my own inmost Spirit.
  May life go to immortal life, and the body go to ashes. O.M. O my soul, remember past strivings, remember! O my soul, remember past strivings, remember!
  By the path of good lead us to final bliss, O fire divine, thou god who knowest all ways. Deliver us from wandering evil. Prayers and adoration we offer unto thee. (4)

Breathe Your Truth.

The Bhagavad Gita, translated by Juan Mascaro 1) p15, 2) p15, 3) p16, 4) p17. 

Putting a price on My Soul

Life seems to be about settling, or satisfying this yearning. Ultimately I believe its for a true experience of what we believe, or think, is God. But why this yearning for something that is truly everywhere? This has been the answer, the conclusion, the solution to all my questions, seeking, yearning - to those deep, slow burning questions that I have inside. There are many, or have been. It all came down to the statement when I took the risk to step out of the game - "I want more!!" I yearn to know the "God thing", "how do I fit?", "how does it work?", "why?"

But if it is already here, in everything, why do I have to go somewhere, or seek, or do? I guess it is the nature of the experience here - in this we call "life". I also seek happiness, peace, appreciation - is this the same desire for God? After all of the acquisition of things, experience, knowledge it has always been followed by a "neediness" for more. That experience has become "wanting" - there is a bitter taste it has left behind. Some thing in my heart tells me that "doing" any more will leave me dissatisfied - "Doing" in the sense of expecting some external reward - money, prestige, recognition. Of course I like to be noticed - I think we all do. But after stacking up a bunch of paper, or numbers, or words I found there wasn't much satisfaction. The satisfaction, now, comes from just the act of Sharing. It's kind of like "Being" for me. I've done a lot of stuff, gotten some answers, or more questions, but it's fun to just Share. But how can I put a price on that? It does seem to be the most important game in the world. I used to play Monopoly. But it did get boring. I found the reward of winning to not be worth the anxiety of "wanting" to win.

What is a fragrant flower blooming in a dew covered meadow worth? Or the laughter of children? To become like a child offers the chance to enter the Kingdom?

I've really lost interest in putting a price on what I do. The numbers game has really come to bore me. Does a tree trust that the Earth will still be here to hold its roots? Do I question each day whether the "science" of the electrons of my body will still operate in balance, or even the galaxies? Why this lack of trust in what we call human affairs?

I depend on nature for my lessons. When I go outside the elements and living things seem pretty peaceful - always moving, yet peaceful. Even the stars or the elements in my body seem in balance - at least it feels that way. I have learned that everything is living and dying - but that is just the natural process of things. The interesting thing is the consistency of the consciousness of the feeling of being me. I've been told I go lots of other places but I don't really remember, clearly.

I can tell my appreciation for what is, has been, is expanding. Sometimes the joy, the ecstacy that seems to emanate from my heart is increasing. I have learned a lot in this lifetime - and now I know I really know nothing. But my yearning to be one with God has expanded too. And yet now I know that I can't ever be out of God - so, I guess, I am really yearning to Be, here, Now - because, I guess I am - at least this part I am aware of. I'm pretty sure God really is taking care of everything. At least the last time I checked he/she/it was.

I'm just thinking I'm just going to Share my stuff - I don't know what else to do. I'll let someone else put a value to it. It just feels good to Share. Others can take it or leave it. I like my stuff. Sometimes it really surprises me. Not many other people seem to notice. Ah, what the hell. I'm not very good at marketing and advertising - well, actually I just don't want to play that game either - I can be pretty good. I don't play Monopoly, chess or video games either.

I guess I'm just becoming a boring old guy. I like to think about God, life and how to feel peaceful and really happy - how do I avoid feeling angst, or frustration or anger? What can I do to help others to feel happy? I like this stuff now. I don't really know how to put a price on those things. I don't really want to "raise money" to do them either. This game just has really gotten boring to me. And it seems to cause a lot of angst. I guess I'm screwed because many people tell me that I have to play the game just to live. Hmmmm . . ., this is quite the conundrum . . . . What am I gonna do?

Solution

Today marks the opportunity for us to implement a solution. That solution is very simple. Find yourself, embrace that essence. Key in on the center of your being knowing that that spark, that life, that force is what keeps the 30 trillion (estimated) cells of your body, which are really like small galaxies, moving. This "polaris star", as described in the Law of One series is your, personal, endowment from God. It is yours to do with what you want. The question is, what are you doing with it?

After you answer that question, which may not be as simple as you think, then you will begin to create the world of your dreams. That is, if you have knowledge of what your dreams are. Most people have not had the courage to examine what their true dreams are much less to pursue them.

I have been learning some very interesting things about each of our individual powers. Imagine given a spark of the Infinite. I'm not talking about a piece, that is some sub-set of something, but a holographic representation of the character, capacity, an aspect of the Infinite Mind, God. This is what is meant by the Bible quote, "in the image and likeness of God", or when Jesus said "it is the father that works through me".

So, now, imagine, you have the power of God at your disposal, what are you going to do with it?

Whatever you focus your mental attention on is what you are creating, supporting to exist.

If you want things to stay the same, if you want to repeat the same experiences over and over again (whether individual or collective), focus on your past, read about history, pay attention to what happened yesterday, or in your distant past - oh yes, it also helps to be very emotional about it.

If you want to have war, famine, disease, suffering and many of the conditions that we have created in the world, watch the news every day, and be angry at all of the injustices and suffering. Pay close attention to the politicians, stories about the bankers and evil corporations and all the things wrong in the world.

If, on the other hand, you want to experience something different, start to notice where your attention is going. On any given day, hour, or minute try to notice where your thoughts and emotional energies are going. Each of those thoughts are being created, fueled and sustained by the Infinite Mind. Because You, as we all are, a channel for that same power.

So, what is the solution, it's pretty simple - focus your thoughts and attention on the solution. Is this easy? - it could be, but in most of our cases it is a very arduous, and dedicated process. The question is though, what do you really want? What did you come here to create? What legacy do you want to leave behind? Do you want to make the most of this incredible experience that you came here to participate in? It truly is up to you.

Love, Peace and Abundance,

Andy

Faith or Trust - the Power of Words

in that past couple years I have learned how we have been sidetracked from our power by the mis-use of words - language is power, and we have been severely conditioned to think and say things we have had no idea what we might be doing to ourselves. I recently realized that I am even expected to "pay" attention.

And someone may think I am just ranting here, about some nonsense, but I feel it is time to get to the bottom of things. Language is the first way that we have lost our power, and confidence, as the "co-creators" of our experience. And we need to re-examine the words, and the beliefs behind the words that we use. George Orwell saw this in both Animal Farm and 1984.

I think the word "Trust" is more appropriate as the word "faith" has been highly abused by religious organizations, as has the word "God". I have thought alot about this but just went to the dictionary to check the definition "Faith: 2. belief that is not based on proof."

Trust "confident expectation of something".

For me, this is likely where the confusion has arisen. The "proof" is all around us. Our whole lives, existence, is the "proof". Faith, it appears gives no credence to the fact that we are here, and that thoughts, from some source, is whence all THIS came. And we are "thinking centers". Faith it seems is a disregard for all the evidence that Source, or God, sustains us, and all the minutest particles to stay in perfect balance. But another key, is our consciousness, and that what we think becomes too.

This kind of thinking, or lack of thinking, or inability to reason and make deductions and recognize the connectedness of all of life is the cause of our current conundrums. And it is not just me who has come to this conclusion - Albert Schweitzer said the cause of the world's condition was "men don't think". It is time that we revisit this lost art, "thinking", to begin to wake up to the blatant mis-use of "the word". We often work totally against ourselves in our own speech, mainly because of some collective, mass conditioning.

Having faith works very well for the church, for "belief" in the church which cannot provide, in my opinion, the evidence that they have adequately guided people toward their highest spiritual advancement, maintains mass support - even referring to themselves as "sheep". It is more like what Earl Nightengale identified as slowing society down to accommodate the slowest. I call it mediocrity.

I can see this much more blantantly during my time here in Colombia where the Catholic church rules. In every tiny village and town, the church is the only thing that exhibits grandeur and wealth, with the back-drop of extreme poverty. I know that the church has had the "keys" to spiritual upliftment, but these have not been shared with the masses. For me, they haven't been doing the job that they stepped up to do. And the way that this happens most blatantly is through the conditioning that has occurred, at the subconscious level, via the "Word" and beliefs.

And, I in no way am trying to be argumentative here. I just have not ever written on this topic and felt compelled to write this here now. Leadership, mastery of life, only occurs when a person recognizes the fantasmical gifts and powers that we have been given to create our lives and our world as a collective humanity. And this fact about "the word" has been blatantly in our face from the most authoritative sources, but we haven't really thought about what they were saying "in the beginning was the word". Whether I recognize it or not, somewhere in the process of all of my creations, the WORD has played a critical part of whether or not they came to be.

Trust, for me, says, I know this will happen, even though I may not understand the total mystery. God, or Source sustains all, and if I align and believe a thing to be - it will be because there is plenty of proof in that I am here, thinking an doing something so there must be support from some incredible source. Because this experience, LIFE, is a wonderous adventure an expanding expression of love, who's intent is on ever expanding life that is "a stairway that leads somewhere". What I know, is it is back to the ONE, but in order for me to get there, I have to live my life to the fullest, but then in that process when I see the "kingdom", I have to try to share with others who don't see it themselves because they believe what others have told them.

Realization of Self Love

This is a very personal description of a great discovery about self-love and the teachings of Jesus and the ten commandments.

About twelve years ago (1997), I was recovering from divorce. It turned out to be one of the most challenging times in my life. This process literally took years. I am not sure why I drug it out so long, but that was just the process. I mostly felt myself to have been a failure as a father. Not upholding the social agreement of marriage, mostly for the sake of my son.

I struggled a great deal financially, probably a form of self punishment. I also had periods of deep sorrow- even so far as contemplating the end of my life. I never went so far to actually do anything, just going to that place of desperate resignation. The most profound of these times I actually went to the place of no feelings. Ambivalence, numbness, not caring. That I discovered is a much more desperate and dangerous place than anger or depression.

When I was at the lowest place I was in my apartment and I picked up the Bible. Now, I have never read the Bible to any great extent. I have tried a number of times, but found the language difficult to comprehend. Plus I have come to believe that much of the greatest truths to have been culled out. However, I still believe that it is filled with great wisdom and truth, it is just difficult for me to decipher what might have been added or deleted. Not the best use of my time, this is my opinion.

However, on this occasion I opened up the book at random, dropped my finger on the passage where the disciples are asking Jesus to speak on the commandments, I remember reading "and what of the ten commandments"? And Jesus's response, in my recollection "There are only two. Love God with all your being. And Love your neighbor as yourself".

Reading this caused great realizations for me, and insights on my perspectives on love of self, and also my access to the love of God. You see, I read in that passage in the Bible, having a scientific mind, a case of deductive reasoning. The bottom line, or the basic challenge of Jesus' message relates to Self love. The deduction, or the leap of reasoning comes because he did not mention three points - 1) Love God, 2) Love Yourself, and 3) Love Your Neighbor as Yourself. The second step in this reasoning is missing.

Why? I assume that Jesus "assumed" that we would love ourselves. But is this the case in our world? I think mostly not. For many reasons - one is that it has become "tabu" in many ways to "Love ourselves" (e.g. narcissism, arrogance, selfishness). However, as I have since discovered, if I don't harbor Love in my heart for myself, how can I truly Love others? And I am not talking about "selfish" love. I'm talking about the Love for God and for all others. For if I truly Love Andy in the true sense of Love then I do not have to worry about selfish love. My brother-in-law many years ago (1981) confronted me on this. I think I said something him to about loving my girlfriend more than I loved myself. And he replied, "Andy how can you expect others to Love you, if you don't Love yourself?" This I have realized over the years is one of the most powerful questions a person can ask - either of themselves, or of a dear one.

This reverie from the quote from Jesus made me think why I might have arrived at the point of not Loving myself. I thought that it probably had something to do with pain - and pain being a sign of being excluded from God's Love, which to me is the greatest fear. Much greater than the fear of death. (a little digression, imagine the world of people living day to day their greatest fear as their truth!)

I thought back to my first unconscious "comprehension" of God - which would have been my parents. They were bigger than me, took care of all my needs, protected me, loved me. But did they love me when they punished me? I think I came to understand/feel that when I did "bad", I was being excluded from Love. When I felt pain, either external or internal, I began to separate myself from Love. I began to believe that I could actually do something and become un-Lovable. A ridiculous notion as I understand today, but for most of my life I believed, I felt this. As my friend Tom says "little Andy", had programmed this idea into the very core of my being. This is the idea that the church has placed on us. The idea of "original sin", or at least the way that I interpreted it. And, if I look at many people in the world, I think others believe it too.

In any case, I examined this idea of doing things, and being "out of Love". And it explained my behaviors. You see, once I was out of Love, or had excluded myself consciously, it doesn't matter. Bad in degrees is immaterial. And, because of the internal pain, the need to blot it out became more and more necessary. Thus, in my case, I turned to drugs and alcohol as a young person. However, at the time of this experience reading the Bible, in 1997, I had been 16 year sober.

I think I somehow got the idea or belief that if I felt pain, I wasn't being Loved. Of course it started with my parents, but then I think it extended to God, and of course to everyone. Because, how or why would I feel pain (which is "bad") if I was Loved?

Pain is a sign of being a "sinner" and "sinners" can't be Loved by God, right? Because we have to become an "un-sinner" for God to really Love us, right? We have to become totally clean to be accepted into the Love of God. And this only happens when you "do something", and are transformed into being "white as snow". But if I feel pain inside, then I feel that I am the same. I know that this is not the case, and this seems like a very childish way of understanding. However, I think this childish "program" was actually running in my life - it explained my behaviors.

In truth, I do not think God condemns. It is a man made construct, like so many other concepts that have imprisoned us - but these are OK, because there is a purpose to all.

I also realized at this moment that pain is not "bad". It is merely an aspect on a continuum. And, in actuality, it can be very, very good. In fact, it was deep and desperate pain that lead me to "no pain", no cares, no feeling which was the stimulus for all of these epiphanies about "Self Love". And in that moment, and in previous moments, I realized that "pain" can be exquisite. And then I wasn't sitting in judgment about my feelings, about my actions, which would result in me being excluded from God's Love, which is not possible.

Whether I consciously bought into the idea of "sin" and condemnation, I think at some level I believed that I had done things that had placed me out of God's Love. Divorce.

Abandoning my son (this was my "programmed" belief). Having a tendency to be somewhat
of a "womanizer". But this actually tied to my own condemnation of myself. It became a self fulfilling prophecy. It was like, OK, I'm already a "screw-up" (a sinner) so fuck it! And I had come to believe that I was the kind of person to do those things. So, if I believe myself to be that kind of person, how could I do anything else? But in reality all I was doing in that process was trying to find love. Love from others. Love to fill the void in me. But no other person can ever fill that void. Because that was a void created by my lack of Love for my Self.

And I think Loving my Self first is actually one of the most gracious things that I could ever do. I am God's first gift to me. To my person. This physical, spiritual and intellectual being was God's gift to me first. And from there, all other expressions arise, at least in my conscious experience.

I realized this in another way a few years ago when I heard the song by Bad Company "Feel like making Love". I realized that we are supposed to be "Love factories". But how could I generate Love if I don't have the first ingredient - Love for the being, the gift that God gave me - me, myself and I. Isn't it a tremendous lack of gratitude to not love what God gave me, first?

Through all of this thinking I realized that "Self love" was to "Love God with All My Being" - and that if I could accomplish Self Love in the most pure and profound way, then "Love Others as Your Self" would flow naturally and effortlessly. That was the "missing deduction" in Jesus's statement about there only being two commandments.

I also realized that maybe, these feelings, were God experiencing itself through me. I imagined my joys, sorrows, and the agelessness of the feelings. I imagined how my body, and my mind seem to age, but my feelings don't. I thought of the loves and deepness of those profound feelings that I had experienced in my life and felt that that truly was a God living through me. And those forces are the ones that have motivated me, truly to seek Love with all my being. To be Love in all ways that I can.

So what next? Forgiveness. Yes, but if God doesn't condemn why would I need forgiveness?

I don't really know, but for me at that (and this) moment, the forgiveness was to know that God's Love was immediately available to me - all-ways, always. It happened to me long ago when I realized my life was in the "shitter", I was a drunk and a junkie, mostly because of my dishonesty with myself. When I had this realization that dishonesty had created my twisted little life, and admitted I was lying, and committed to take a different path, and said the prayer "God help me". My life began to be totally different.

All I had to do, I guess, was to accept the Love to flow. It was there waiting. I didn't grow any new Love acceptance organs.

Oh, you may be thinking, why do I say that God doesn't judge - well for me, it's about Love. Love Loves it doesn't judge. And if God is Love then God doesn't judge. God just Loves.

So what I had to do at that moment was look at Andy, and see him for who he was, and just appreciate that he never meant to hurt anyone - on purpose. That many times he was confused, and did things that resulted in apparent "problems" but that those really don't matter to Love. That no matter what I think that I do that is bad, and no matter how bad I might feel, I am always Loved by God. Period. There is no way out of it. It is everywhere and always.

And today, I have learned more and more about my feelings and their connection to the Divine. That they are actually the "program" the "guidance system" that I was given in order to know how to avoid doing the things that were contrary to my, and others, best interest. But I didn't learn this until about 2 years ago.

Your Dreams

August 13, 2010

Embrace Your Dreams
Be Your Dreams
know Your Dreams
their creation
their giving
their passion
are what you were intended to create
These experiences, these visions
Are the Dreams of the Love on the One
Invited to be expressed, shared, manifested
Through the Love placed in Your heart
Directly from Source as the Divine repository
Only there can that immensely, fantabulously unique
Spark be represented and presented in the pure form
in which it was created
it is Yours, only Yours
but only experienced, cherished, created
by your discovery, nourishment, beholding
the journey of your life
Your primary task
is to find this Spark, this Star
of my Love
and present it back to me
through your world
through your sharing
through your peace
as a gift to All That Is

A Summary of Creation

I wrote this post to a friend on Facebook on Monday August 1st.

God, or Source is everything, and nothing, and anything else. God is Perfect. All That Is infinite. All is Good. All this bickering is the result of tiny human minds trying to comprehend the incomprehensible. The scriptures, like DNA and much more, have been manipulated greatly. But the truth is there, and it is in Your heart. The path is learning to Love. To have Reverence for Life - the Golden Rule - to Love God with all your being and love your neighbor as yourself. If it is infinite, how could anything be excluded, much less what we can imagine in our tiny little minds. All is an expression of the ONE, and will return, and be sent out again, forever - and it is all based on Love. The "experiment" which is what we are a part of, but highly disconnected to a greater Spiritual awareness of the vast nature of the cosmos - was to create "Free will" which is expressed in 2 ways - Service to Self and Service to Others. Without something that "appears" to be other than Love, love couldn´t know Love. But it is Love. We are awakening as a collective being which is what we are, what it all is. However, if we decide to stay focused on all this bickering, controversy and "evil", and serve ourselves less than we serve others, we get to stay in that place. That is how it works - whatever you want, expressed by what you are focusing, thinking and emoting about - you get - period. That is what it means to be "made in the image and likeness of God".

Love´s Embrace

Loves Embrace

if we could only see

how much love embraces us

we would never be ashamed

never seek to blame

surrounds us

envelopes us

creates us

it is our divine decree

to be

this love that abounds

this is what our life was meant to be

to be free

to love one another

to share the deep cosmic truth

that seeks to express

itself

in our life

One´s Silence

I happened to go back in my journal and came across an entry that I forgot. This was a week I spent communing with the river near my wife´s home town. It has been many years since I spent this kind of quality time in nature.

I believe it is a mystical, powerful place. Called Cajamarca, it sits on a table next to the Anaime river, which I layed, prayed and meditated on a rock in the river during the week of April 1. I think for 4 days of the week.

The town now is the center of a controversy. They have discovered a gold mine, purportedly the second largest in human history. They started exploration but the operation has been shut down because of political controversy.

Cajamarca is a poor, agricultural Colombian town. Myth says it sits on four pillars of Gold. The area is expected to have an earthquake - imminently. In the last quarter year there has been 300 tremors. Some say that the fate of the world is connected to the mountain. My wife had a very distinct dream with a message. I don´t know. I just report what is coming to my heart, and what words I try to share about the Wonder and Love I have for God, creation, Gaia and humanity.

Here were the words that came to me from the river.

April 1, 2010

The One is silent and still but all sound and movement are sourced from the One.

God does not talk but has many messengers.

How do I reach that quiet pure potential of God within me? How do I reach that pool of still "Being" where all this manifests from? How can I get past "thought" which is the curtain I must pull aside to view the sea of the One? Where all love and All That Is utilizes to take form. Patience. Quiet. Stillness. Breathing. Listen with your heart and being not just your head, but it might come in that way. Listen to the light, the birds, your own sounds. Listen to others. Wait.

Good

Journal entry August 25, 2009

Had a great chat with Tom about 1 thing – GOOD

- Here I am going to cite all of the ways that I can relate to this idea,
   in fact has been a theme resounding in my life for many years.
- Do Good – Nike/Google
    o Life is Good LG symbol.
- Rectifies judgement issue – all goes back to 1 thing.
- My own insights that all apparent evil only exists in human “reality”
   war, famine, disease, actually all demonstrates how powerful we
   are to create against the flow of creation.
- When I observe nature I see no evil.
- Returning to One is the only way to make sense, why would God
   show us the amusement park or candy store but not allow us to go
   there and experience it.
- Analogy of a video game.
- We are playing monopoly here on Earth.
- Computer analogy, dual operating memory but it is really only one
   that mimics duality.
- We have gotten lost down the path of duality.
- Invite people to examine the most tragic, painful experience and not find the good.
- It is about processing, contemplating, evaluating experience.
- Emmett Fox – contemplation is the highest form of meditation.
- The tragic experiences in alcoholics, criminals and people´s lives are what are pushing them to go
   back the other way.
- God is everything.
- God is Good.
- Everything is Good.
- I am Good.
- I bring Good to the World.
- My heart and all of my being comes from God, so I am all Good.
- I will entertain only Good in my experience which is in everything.
- I will not, do not fear death because if it did exist, which it really doesn´t, it is so Good there is nothing
   to be afraid of.
- If dying is the worst thing that can happen to me, which is really Good, what am I making such a big
   deal about?
- My nature is based on infinite Good.
- Need to figure out ways for people to get this into their consciousness – relate to the larger
   experiences of their lives but then to the day to day.
    o Tragic experience, what was the result?
    o Each and every experience it Good.
- Only Good exercises.
- Know that all is one Good, that expresses itself in infinite forms of Good – no matter what judgment
   has previously been attached to it.

The Temple

Yesterday Desmond Green and I had two chats. The conversation continues about our "awakening," our becoming conscious of the fact, as Desmond puts it "we are physical spirit becoming conscious of it".

Last night I had really intense dreams about a message. I had received an email or something I was trying to solve some sort of puzzle, to decipher the greater meaning of the message. In my sleep I was reminded that I was supposed to be cryptologist when I was in the Air Force (I only was in 9 months - hehe). But in the dream I knew I could figure it out. I woke up at 5:45 to take Juanjo to school but hadn´t solved the riddle. But when I came back to lay down a little while with Benjamin, I got a very clear message "The Temple". I also knew that I could find validation in the Bible so I did a quick search and here is part of what I found.

1 Corinthians 3:16 Do you not know that you are a temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?

John 2:21 But He was speaking of the temple of His body....

Romans 14:7 For not one of us lives for himself, and not one dies for himself;

1 Corinthians 6:3 Do you not know that we will judge angels? How much more matters of this life?

2 Corinthians 6:16 Or what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we are the temple of the living God; just as God said, "I WILL DWELL IN THEM AND WALK AMONG THEM; AND I WILL BE THEIR GOD, AND THEY SHALL BE MY PEOPLE.

"We are physical - Spirit becoming conscious of this through our experiences" - Desmond Green

Blessings to All

Andy

I don´t know a title

April 10, 2010

This morning in my dreams I saw the Mandala. The same one in a sense that I had created for my work. But instead of seeing a nuclear reaction which is expanding out I realized that the Mandala also represents the World – and that I have been running around the wheel for 50 years.

In a way I may have been looking for God, but it has, without real commitment, at least consciously, been a search for the truth. In my dream state awareness I was taken back to the realization I had the other day “they were right” – meaning all of the obnoxious people I have met in my life that have been trying to convince me about “Jesus”, and him saving my soul, and his dying for my sins, etc. Although, I am not sure all of them really know the truth – only God knows.

I guess it is the approach for them to bring me home that has always had me resistant, and the “apparent” gist of their message that I had to somehow go through Jesus to get to God. Something that I have always inherently known, that there cannot be only one path to God through another being. Now, I am pretty sure I have figured out what Jesus was teaching us about the one path.

But in my sleep today I realized I have been running around the wheel of life, and then taking different spokes of the wheel to find this “truth”. I don´t know how many spokes are on the wheel, there are many. But as I have ventured down each one, I have discovered that on the way to God, Jesus always shows up. And it is not for the reasons that I have been disagreeable. I had been prejudiced, resistant to the messengers of the messenger. The Son of God. I have always lived the best way I knew how by the teachings of Jesus. The Golden Rule has been with me ever since I was a little boy. My mother brought that one home to my heart.

Now, as I have read innumerable books from many sources and they have all led to the same conclusion. I have now accepted that Jesus is all of what he has been claimed to be. But so often the secrets can be best hidden right in front of our eyes. This is because we really don´t see.

It is interesting how this combination of the personal work I am doing now seems to be blending in a very unique way to give me multiple validations of the other sources. I have read many books, and someday I will post these, but right now I am doing A Course in Miracles and listening to Wayne Dyers “Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life” interpretation of the Tao de Ching (both are excellent). But what is interesting, is today I am working on the ACiM lesson 30 which is “Above all else I want to see things differently” and the Tao de Ching was the 12th verse

12. Substance
Too much colour blinds the eye,
Too much music deafens the ear,
Too much taste dulls the palate,
Too much play maddens the mind,
Too much desire tears the heart.

In this manner the sage cares for people:
He provides for the belly, not for the senses;
He ignores abstraction and holds fast to substance.

Listening to the Tao today made me realize that we have gotten totally mesmerized with the “plastic wrapping” of life. The plastic wrapping in this case would be our labels and thoughts about the world, life and everything. We have been simply scratching the surface of who and what we are, what everything is, especially this thing that we have come to call God.

It´s as though I have been living 50 years simply scanning the world, pressing my labels, opinions, judgments, etc. on existence and then moved on to the next “subject”. Even though I have always considered myself to be open, inquisitive, and all those other words that I might use, I have never really given much thought to anything – even though I thought I have.

How has this change come to pass. Hmmm, I guess it is about another truth that I had learned long ago, but had not really done much of, even though I thought that I had. This is about looking into myself, really trying to understand who and what I am. Of course I have read many, many books. But again, it was like I was only touching the surface. I was simply scanning the horizon, observing the eye candy, then moving onto the next location. I never spent enough time to really look deep into just one thing. Of course I have been “trying”, I have been involved in “self help” stuff for almost 30 years. And I have earnestly prayed and worked on Andy. I´ve also been missing the point.

It is like the story of the man who finds the diamond field with tiny specs of diamonds on the surface, he spends his days picking up those tiny chips, not realizing the really huge diamonds are down below him, all he needs to do is start digging.

However, this analogy has another trap, one that is embedded in all of this discussion. And that has to do with the material world and with Spirit. We have essentially become addicted to the sense experience - material existence. So mesmerized with the experience of looking through our eyes, touching, hearing, smelling, tasting, that we have missed by far the biggest most important part of why we are here. This has to do with the label we have given for “spirit” and “consciousness”. The place, or non-place where all this stuff emerges. And I suspect that I am going to find just below the surface that this is where God is going to reveal some more of the truth.

As I sit here and type these words, I might just as well have spent my whole life looking at one of Jesus´s teachings and trying to understand that. Or to just sit by the river as the Buddha did. Or to just spend a year contemplating a flower. Because now I see that all spokes on the wheel lead back to the source, the hub. And, as the Tao from yesterday revealed, in the center of a wheel is a hole – apparently, empty space. And if I just would have spent more time getting past all of the self constructed beliefs, I might have arrived where I am today much sooner.

But that is another trap, lamenting, regretting, or feeling guilty for time past. The fact of the matter is it has taken what it has taken for me to get here. And it is the perfect place to be, because I have so much experience and knowledge to compare against.

“Anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these.” John 14: 12

“It is the father, living in me who is doing his work.” John 14: 10

Poems and The Truth

Poems from April 9, 2010-03-10

The Message

waiting . . .
waiting . . .
waiting . . .
breath . . .
waiting . . .
waiting . . .
hmmm

We Know

Let´s stop fooling ourselves
we know what we are doing

No Title

This voice in my head
I can´t hear it
It´s not you or me
But it’s the One
I need to listen
I know it´s there
It´s the key to my salvation

New Light

Shades of antiquity
Shelter our thoughts
Chaining us to shadowy reflections
of life at another time
Each day new light shines

The Truth

Why does the truth scare us so much? It is the only thing that exists. It is unavoidable. Undeniable. It is going to get us in the end. So why resist?

Ultimately the true truth is unknowable. Because it is One with God. And yet our only task, ultimately is to seek the truth, accept the truth and be the truth as we understand it. In fact, that is what is always happening any way. But we don´t have to live an ignorant truth. We can seek. That is the most sublime and fulfilling task that we can pursue, accomplish. The truth is Love. And then it is not. But to know the truth of Love as Jesus taught, or even a small portion, is to glimpse the Divine unknowable. The truth is relative, and it is not. The truth is achievable and it is not. For once we have reached the truth, there will be a new truth, and this process goes on into infinity. At least until the day when we emerge, or re-merge with our Source, Our God, the One.

It is the longest journey we can ever take. And yet is closer than the smallest atom. Because we are immersed in the truth. But we will not know the truth as I share these words on this page. Words never explain any more than to be a guide. A roadmap. And the experience becomes itself in process, and from that we have an opportunity to experience the truth, in relative terms.

But to be mindful of this, to be conscious is the most wonderous experience. Because then we can drop all of our worries, woes, plans, intrigues and embarrassments and just tell it like it is. We can just tell people what happened, what is happening, or how we see it, honestly.

True freedom, wonder, glory, adventure emerge from the sincere attempt. But we cannot depend on our mind to guide us in this. We must also be wanting to open a channel to our heart. Because as I have pursued this process, only recently becoming conscious that I should align myself with the pursuit of truth, have I really validated this sense that the path to truth is through my own heart. The truth for me today, is that there is only one path to God, and I believe that Jesus was and is trying to convince me of this, and that path is through my own heart. And each other person´s path is through their hearts.

How do we simplify the model?

When one looks at all of the world´s situations they look so complex. So many complexities in our lives, in the world, and if taken as a complete seems overwhelming. The key is to take it one step at a time. The best analogy is that of a mountain climber. He doesn´t take the whole trip in his head before he starts, otherwise he wouldn´t do it. He makes up his mind to go, takes the right tools, adapts, makes adjustments, in process, and step by step, one foothold and handhold at a time makes his way to the peak.

But what is our guide for our metaphorical journey to some desired destination. We have gotten so far off track, or down a dead-end road, that it is difficult to know what tools we have at our disposal to guide us toward a more harmonious world. Even our thinking is skewed. The knowledge, or what we know that we are, and what All That Is is, is quite skewed. So how do we get out of this culdesac, this dead-end situation?

I think it is a matter of finding a principle by which we can guide our thinking and actions and move toward improvement of our situation on a day by day basis. As we look at the various systems that we have created, they do not work. The evidence is all around us.

Now we may envision a new reality, one that we might call perfect, but we are so far away from that reality that we lose all hope which we have seen is another obstacle for progress. We must not work against ourselves, we must not allow ourselves to create barriers for us to achieve what our desired outcomes are. So how we accomplish this is to develop ways by which we can move progressively out of our collective conundrum, but this only happens on an individual basis! So, by what principle can we guide ourselves? I believe it is the Golden Rule – but what I believe is actually the most important universal law of the Universe.

A digression might be to talk about how just using the Word “rule”, (very likely it was supposed to be law) has made us forget, or not comprehend the true importance of this. The ten commandments were described as “rules” to live by. But as Emmet Fox wrote about in his book 10 commandments is the fact that they are actually laws. People have been inclined to break rules, because they really don´t understand that by doing things against rules they are really mostly hurting themselves. ¨Rules are meant to be broken” is a tongue in cheek saying, but who of us does not secretly believe this to be true. This may be a case where all of the things that we aren´t supposed to do, actually become very attractive and we secretly do these things but pretend that we are not. We then begin to hide from ourselves, dishonesty sets in, and then we are down the slippery slope of how can a person base a life on lying to oneself. We can see the results of this erroneous thinking by what we see in the world.

So, back to the Golden Law. It is a law. If I hurt you, I hurt me and you. But likely more me, because in the end, since the universe cannot operate on “fuzzy”, happenstance, fickle, occasional, or non-solid principles, or “laws”. For every action there will be a reaction. So if I steal something from you, at some time in the future I will pay that price (if not in this life, then in a future life). Most of us do not really understand the Golden Law. And it is not the point to follow this principle for selfish purposes, because if I am being nice just to serve myself, not concerned about the impacts on others, that is another trap.
To move out of this “far from the desired situation” in the world, I believe the Golden Law is the foundation.

Let us continue with our analogy, and imagine that our collective being has truly taken a trip down a street and we took a wrong turn and found ourselves in a culdesac, or dead-end. And for several milennia we have been circling around in the cul-de-sac.

How do we get out?

The only way to get out of a dead end is to turn around and walk back out. We start to walk step by step out. But we need some sort of guide. How will we know if we have turned back around, and started to go back to the dead-end?

It is the Golden Law.

Albert Schweitzer called it reverence for life. This idea is that we do not harm any form of life. This includes other people, insects, plants, animals, the planet. This also very much relates to Free Will. If we impose our Will, on anothers Free Will, in the end, we are going to have to rectify, or deal with the repercussions.

But as one looks at the world, most of what we do ends up damaging something. This is the evidence of how far off track we have gotten. It seems that all of our “systems” hurt something. As we observe this situation we could become totally discouraged and not even want to start the journey back. But this is the wrong perspective. We must be like the mountain climber. Take the tools, how to think, common sense and the Golden Law and begin the journey step by step.

In essence the Golden Rule becomes our measuring stick, our guide in the process. We can measure each of our steps, thoughts, actions against this Universal principle which was given to us by Jesus, and step by step, day by day begin the journey back to create the new world. All that is required is the honest and sincere desire to take the journey. As we go along we can know, that in fact we are being guided by the perfect “program” – our feelings. Also circumstance, or repercussions are a guide. They have always been here, but this is evidence of how misinformed we have been. We have not even known that God had installed an operating system that guides us perfectly, constantly providing feedback in the form of “good” or “bad” feelings, or vibrational reactions showing us whether or not we are moving in the direction of what is in our best interest.

Self reflection is another key tool We have to be able to look back on what we do and evaluate whether or not we are making progress. This should be a continual, on going process.

Also, we need to be aware that our “knowledge base” and what we have to work with will be continually improving as we go along in this process. We will gain new insights, better understanding, better skills as we continually seek improvement and progress. We essentially tap into the Divine power of Love that will continually endow more of what we need to continue on our journey toward the perfect expression of the Golden Law. This is Law. And we cannot attempt to do something, with an honest and sincere desire to do good, and not be given, directly from Source the tools, education, resources, motivation, etc. to move toward our goal.

One of the most difficult issues is the principle of measuring, or judging our progress based upon the existing thinking and dualistic system that currently operates in our world, in our “human” thinking system. We have to be astute to watch ourselves from not beating ourselves up for not learning the lessons “we think” we should have learned. Feeling guilty, getting angry at ourselves, or others, again, is a huge sign that we are heading in the wrong direction. The key to the success of this process is to be gentle with ourselves and others as almost all of us have been battered by our own judgment of ourselves. We have become masters with a whip, constantly beating our own backs, having the mistaken belief that this might be an effective way to motívate ourselves, pushing ourselves along our journey in constant oppressive judgment of our progress. We are not pack animals (in fact this is not how we should treat animals either). This is the same method that was used to submit the slaves. If we are to become loving and kind to others, we must practice it first and foremost with ourselves. Of course, we must always practice this with others, the planet, and animals as well. For all really is just One. This is the great truth contained in the Golden Law. What we do to others we do to ourselves, the others, to the One, or to God.

But we need not become discouraged when we see how far off the track we have gotten. This, apparently, is the whole point of the journey. This is what God wanted. Rome was not built in a day. A 1000 mile journey starts with one step. And with the powerful, and all present One, guiding us, and loving us while we utilize the Golden Law as our guide, we will find ourselves on a joyous journey, day by day to our visión. Our destination. But the point is not about getting somewhere, but the journey.