Life seems to be about settling, or satisfying this yearning. Ultimately I believe its for a true experience of what we believe, or think, is God. But why this yearning for something that is truly everywhere? This has been the answer, the conclusion, the solution to all my questions, seeking, yearning - to those deep, slow burning questions that I have inside. There are many, or have been. It all came down to the statement when I took the risk to step out of the game - "I want more!!" I yearn to know the "God thing", "how do I fit?", "how does it work?", "why?"
But if it is already here, in everything, why do I have to go somewhere, or seek, or do? I guess it is the nature of the experience here - in this we call "life". I also seek happiness, peace, appreciation - is this the same desire for God? After all of the acquisition of things, experience, knowledge it has always been followed by a "neediness" for more. That experience has become "wanting" - there is a bitter taste it has left behind. Some thing in my heart tells me that "doing" any more will leave me dissatisfied - "Doing" in the sense of expecting some external reward - money, prestige, recognition. Of course I like to be noticed - I think we all do. But after stacking up a bunch of paper, or numbers, or words I found there wasn't much satisfaction. The satisfaction, now, comes from just the act of Sharing. It's kind of like "Being" for me. I've done a lot of stuff, gotten some answers, or more questions, but it's fun to just Share. But how can I put a price on that? It does seem to be the most important game in the world. I used to play Monopoly. But it did get boring. I found the reward of winning to not be worth the anxiety of "wanting" to win.
What is a fragrant flower blooming in a dew covered meadow worth? Or the laughter of children? To become like a child offers the chance to enter the Kingdom?
I've really lost interest in putting a price on what I do. The numbers game has really come to bore me. Does a tree trust that the Earth will still be here to hold its roots? Do I question each day whether the "science" of the electrons of my body will still operate in balance, or even the galaxies? Why this lack of trust in what we call human affairs?
I depend on nature for my lessons. When I go outside the elements and living things seem pretty peaceful - always moving, yet peaceful. Even the stars or the elements in my body seem in balance - at least it feels that way. I have learned that everything is living and dying - but that is just the natural process of things. The interesting thing is the consistency of the consciousness of the feeling of being me. I've been told I go lots of other places but I don't really remember, clearly.
I can tell my appreciation for what is, has been, is expanding. Sometimes the joy, the ecstacy that seems to emanate from my heart is increasing. I have learned a lot in this lifetime - and now I know I really know nothing. But my yearning to be one with God has expanded too. And yet now I know that I can't ever be out of God - so, I guess, I am really yearning to Be, here, Now - because, I guess I am - at least this part I am aware of. I'm pretty sure God really is taking care of everything. At least the last time I checked he/she/it was.
I'm just thinking I'm just going to Share my stuff - I don't know what else to do. I'll let someone else put a value to it. It just feels good to Share. Others can take it or leave it. I like my stuff. Sometimes it really surprises me. Not many other people seem to notice. Ah, what the hell. I'm not very good at marketing and advertising - well, actually I just don't want to play that game either - I can be pretty good. I don't play Monopoly, chess or video games either.
I guess I'm just becoming a boring old guy. I like to think about God, life and how to feel peaceful and really happy - how do I avoid feeling angst, or frustration or anger? What can I do to help others to feel happy? I like this stuff now. I don't really know how to put a price on those things. I don't really want to "raise money" to do them either. This game just has really gotten boring to me. And it seems to cause a lot of angst. I guess I'm screwed because many people tell me that I have to play the game just to live. Hmmmm . . ., this is quite the conundrum . . . . What am I gonna do?
Showing posts with label trust. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trust. Show all posts
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Waiting for You
We are One.
Living as two.
But two is not the truth,
of this you can be sure.
The One created this illusory reality,
In order to define,
An expression outside itself.
That being only love.
But that experiment is now complete.
A new reality will emerge.
A continuation of Divine Love.
But contrary to what we think we know,
this will truly be one of Free Will.
No longer vibrationally concurred.
A new opening will emerge.
Transitioning us to experience infinite Love.
But the choice will always be yours.
As it truly always has.
This adventure will emerge.
from the thoughts and fears you have.
So process now your ancient woes.
Replace with only Peace and Love.
From That which all emerges.
This peace yours and ours.
You will find it in your heart.
It is accessible through your Breath.
And yes, it is as simple as that!
But be diligent dear one.
For the new world will respond.
With eagerness and joy.
Delivering your wildest dreams.
Whether of fear or joy.
But if regrets or hate be your dominant trait,
that will assure that fate.
So come now to trust God.
The One who's always been,
supporting you.
One single breath - One by One.
A new amazing world awaits.
One fully immersed in Love.
But the actual experience,
will be totally up to you.
As it always has.
So now my friend, my love
What will You choose?
Your experience waits for you.
Living as two.
But two is not the truth,
of this you can be sure.
The One created this illusory reality,
In order to define,
An expression outside itself.
That being only love.
But that experiment is now complete.
A new reality will emerge.
A continuation of Divine Love.
But contrary to what we think we know,
this will truly be one of Free Will.
No longer vibrationally concurred.
A new opening will emerge.
Transitioning us to experience infinite Love.
But the choice will always be yours.
As it truly always has.
This adventure will emerge.
from the thoughts and fears you have.
So process now your ancient woes.
Replace with only Peace and Love.
From That which all emerges.
This peace yours and ours.
You will find it in your heart.
It is accessible through your Breath.
And yes, it is as simple as that!
But be diligent dear one.
For the new world will respond.
With eagerness and joy.
Delivering your wildest dreams.
Whether of fear or joy.
But if regrets or hate be your dominant trait,
that will assure that fate.
So come now to trust God.
The One who's always been,
supporting you.
One single breath - One by One.
A new amazing world awaits.
One fully immersed in Love.
But the actual experience,
will be totally up to you.
As it always has.
So now my friend, my love
What will You choose?
Your experience waits for you.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Don't be afraid - It's all Love
There is no reason to be afraid. I am tentative to almost bring up the idea of "fear" because there is a paradox. Jung captured it in the idea "what you resist, persists". In any case, we have to be able to look at what we "think" is going on, and face it, and come to terms with it. In regards to fear, is that it is just an idea. Of course one could go into a lengthy discourse on the subject. About how it is a biological survival mechanism, blah, blah, blah. One of the most ridiculous quotes, that was invented and broadly adapted in the United States of America was "the only thing we have to fear, is fear itself". OMG - can you believe we bought into that? I did - I even re-quoted it.
Anyway, not to get into a long diatribe, why don't we have to be afraid? Because God did not leave us, or forget us - we are not disconnected from the source of this beautiful creation, the All That Is. If we had been forgotten, then we wouldn't be here.
I took a walk by the Mississippi River just a few minutes ago. I was thinking about love. That which is the source, supply and product of all that we are, what is, and there is absolutely no disconnect from original source because if there were, IT, whatever It is, you, me, trees, flowers, bugs, stars, galaxies, universes, the infinitude - IT would cease to exist. There is no way for any part of the cosmos, from the smallest particle to the infinitude of universes and dimensions for any part to be cut off.
However, in our power, we have adequately created the experience of separation. But this part of our story is over, as I have been experiencing. It is time for the conversion of our collective experience to one of peace, harmony and abundance. Many are looking outside, at the moving pictures, distractions, inversions of energetic, chaotic display hoping to hook onto a semblance of balance but the material manifestation is fleeting, continually moving.
The true center (the zero point), of the spiral, the storm, resides within our own Being, which in this physical dimension is an emanation with its center-point within our physical bodies. The "collective human, external creation" has so much static and chaos as to be an impossible place of grounding. It is similar to if you spill water on an electronic circuit board - the ground will be lost and the functionality of the system is totally lost. To seek the peace in the ever changing show, in the outside world is an act of futility. It truly is a significant form of entertainment, but your consciousness will lose itself in the ever changing patterns and emotional turmoil that is swirling around the globe.
The best use of your energies, attention at this time is to be sure to connect, at least for a portion of each day, to the center of your conscious emanations. Each human being is a quantum, multi-dimensional portal of the Divine spark of life. Each being transposes the energy and consciousness of the Infinite Mind into a creative vehicle, co-creative partner in Life. Essentially, via the breath as the vehicle of the Spirit energies, we transform thoughts and feelings into physical manifestations on this plane of existence. The energy patterns have been diverted and controlled as a mechanism to teach us what the possibility would be for the disconnect from the Source Love, but this was only an illusory process. It was only an experiment, a test. But now our re-connect is well underway, essentially a total remembering of our Cosmic nature and what our part has been in this grand endeavor on this tiny sphere, but which has been a total success in contributing a vast array of experience to the Infinite Collective. The disconnect has ended, but what is required now is the individuated consciousness, You in other words, to re-establish the connection. It happens through your allowing, knowing and the action required is simply to become cognizant of your breath and its Divine Blueprint - embedded in the action of breathing deeply, and consciously, in and out. Then watch with wonder in the transformation, the transmutation of your experience.
Anyway, not to get into a long diatribe, why don't we have to be afraid? Because God did not leave us, or forget us - we are not disconnected from the source of this beautiful creation, the All That Is. If we had been forgotten, then we wouldn't be here.
I took a walk by the Mississippi River just a few minutes ago. I was thinking about love. That which is the source, supply and product of all that we are, what is, and there is absolutely no disconnect from original source because if there were, IT, whatever It is, you, me, trees, flowers, bugs, stars, galaxies, universes, the infinitude - IT would cease to exist. There is no way for any part of the cosmos, from the smallest particle to the infinitude of universes and dimensions for any part to be cut off.
However, in our power, we have adequately created the experience of separation. But this part of our story is over, as I have been experiencing. It is time for the conversion of our collective experience to one of peace, harmony and abundance. Many are looking outside, at the moving pictures, distractions, inversions of energetic, chaotic display hoping to hook onto a semblance of balance but the material manifestation is fleeting, continually moving.
The true center (the zero point), of the spiral, the storm, resides within our own Being, which in this physical dimension is an emanation with its center-point within our physical bodies. The "collective human, external creation" has so much static and chaos as to be an impossible place of grounding. It is similar to if you spill water on an electronic circuit board - the ground will be lost and the functionality of the system is totally lost. To seek the peace in the ever changing show, in the outside world is an act of futility. It truly is a significant form of entertainment, but your consciousness will lose itself in the ever changing patterns and emotional turmoil that is swirling around the globe.
The best use of your energies, attention at this time is to be sure to connect, at least for a portion of each day, to the center of your conscious emanations. Each human being is a quantum, multi-dimensional portal of the Divine spark of life. Each being transposes the energy and consciousness of the Infinite Mind into a creative vehicle, co-creative partner in Life. Essentially, via the breath as the vehicle of the Spirit energies, we transform thoughts and feelings into physical manifestations on this plane of existence. The energy patterns have been diverted and controlled as a mechanism to teach us what the possibility would be for the disconnect from the Source Love, but this was only an illusory process. It was only an experiment, a test. But now our re-connect is well underway, essentially a total remembering of our Cosmic nature and what our part has been in this grand endeavor on this tiny sphere, but which has been a total success in contributing a vast array of experience to the Infinite Collective. The disconnect has ended, but what is required now is the individuated consciousness, You in other words, to re-establish the connection. It happens through your allowing, knowing and the action required is simply to become cognizant of your breath and its Divine Blueprint - embedded in the action of breathing deeply, and consciously, in and out. Then watch with wonder in the transformation, the transmutation of your experience.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Faith or Trust - the Power of Words
in that past couple years I have learned how we have been sidetracked from our power by the mis-use of words - language is power, and we have been severely conditioned to think and say things we have had no idea what we might be doing to ourselves. I recently realized that I am even expected to "pay" attention.
And someone may think I am just ranting here, about some nonsense, but I feel it is time to get to the bottom of things. Language is the first way that we have lost our power, and confidence, as the "co-creators" of our experience. And we need to re-examine the words, and the beliefs behind the words that we use. George Orwell saw this in both Animal Farm and 1984.
I think the word "Trust" is more appropriate as the word "faith" has been highly abused by religious organizations, as has the word "God". I have thought alot about this but just went to the dictionary to check the definition "Faith: 2. belief that is not based on proof."
Trust "confident expectation of something".
For me, this is likely where the confusion has arisen. The "proof" is all around us. Our whole lives, existence, is the "proof". Faith, it appears gives no credence to the fact that we are here, and that thoughts, from some source, is whence all THIS came. And we are "thinking centers". Faith it seems is a disregard for all the evidence that Source, or God, sustains us, and all the minutest particles to stay in perfect balance. But another key, is our consciousness, and that what we think becomes too.
This kind of thinking, or lack of thinking, or inability to reason and make deductions and recognize the connectedness of all of life is the cause of our current conundrums. And it is not just me who has come to this conclusion - Albert Schweitzer said the cause of the world's condition was "men don't think". It is time that we revisit this lost art, "thinking", to begin to wake up to the blatant mis-use of "the word". We often work totally against ourselves in our own speech, mainly because of some collective, mass conditioning.
Having faith works very well for the church, for "belief" in the church which cannot provide, in my opinion, the evidence that they have adequately guided people toward their highest spiritual advancement, maintains mass support - even referring to themselves as "sheep". It is more like what Earl Nightengale identified as slowing society down to accommodate the slowest. I call it mediocrity.
I can see this much more blantantly during my time here in Colombia where the Catholic church rules. In every tiny village and town, the church is the only thing that exhibits grandeur and wealth, with the back-drop of extreme poverty. I know that the church has had the "keys" to spiritual upliftment, but these have not been shared with the masses. For me, they haven't been doing the job that they stepped up to do. And the way that this happens most blatantly is through the conditioning that has occurred, at the subconscious level, via the "Word" and beliefs.
And, I in no way am trying to be argumentative here. I just have not ever written on this topic and felt compelled to write this here now. Leadership, mastery of life, only occurs when a person recognizes the fantasmical gifts and powers that we have been given to create our lives and our world as a collective humanity. And this fact about "the word" has been blatantly in our face from the most authoritative sources, but we haven't really thought about what they were saying "in the beginning was the word". Whether I recognize it or not, somewhere in the process of all of my creations, the WORD has played a critical part of whether or not they came to be.
Trust, for me, says, I know this will happen, even though I may not understand the total mystery. God, or Source sustains all, and if I align and believe a thing to be - it will be because there is plenty of proof in that I am here, thinking an doing something so there must be support from some incredible source. Because this experience, LIFE, is a wonderous adventure an expanding expression of love, who's intent is on ever expanding life that is "a stairway that leads somewhere". What I know, is it is back to the ONE, but in order for me to get there, I have to live my life to the fullest, but then in that process when I see the "kingdom", I have to try to share with others who don't see it themselves because they believe what others have told them.
And someone may think I am just ranting here, about some nonsense, but I feel it is time to get to the bottom of things. Language is the first way that we have lost our power, and confidence, as the "co-creators" of our experience. And we need to re-examine the words, and the beliefs behind the words that we use. George Orwell saw this in both Animal Farm and 1984.
I think the word "Trust" is more appropriate as the word "faith" has been highly abused by religious organizations, as has the word "God". I have thought alot about this but just went to the dictionary to check the definition "Faith: 2. belief that is not based on proof."
Trust "confident expectation of something".
For me, this is likely where the confusion has arisen. The "proof" is all around us. Our whole lives, existence, is the "proof". Faith, it appears gives no credence to the fact that we are here, and that thoughts, from some source, is whence all THIS came. And we are "thinking centers". Faith it seems is a disregard for all the evidence that Source, or God, sustains us, and all the minutest particles to stay in perfect balance. But another key, is our consciousness, and that what we think becomes too.
This kind of thinking, or lack of thinking, or inability to reason and make deductions and recognize the connectedness of all of life is the cause of our current conundrums. And it is not just me who has come to this conclusion - Albert Schweitzer said the cause of the world's condition was "men don't think". It is time that we revisit this lost art, "thinking", to begin to wake up to the blatant mis-use of "the word". We often work totally against ourselves in our own speech, mainly because of some collective, mass conditioning.
Having faith works very well for the church, for "belief" in the church which cannot provide, in my opinion, the evidence that they have adequately guided people toward their highest spiritual advancement, maintains mass support - even referring to themselves as "sheep". It is more like what Earl Nightengale identified as slowing society down to accommodate the slowest. I call it mediocrity.
I can see this much more blantantly during my time here in Colombia where the Catholic church rules. In every tiny village and town, the church is the only thing that exhibits grandeur and wealth, with the back-drop of extreme poverty. I know that the church has had the "keys" to spiritual upliftment, but these have not been shared with the masses. For me, they haven't been doing the job that they stepped up to do. And the way that this happens most blatantly is through the conditioning that has occurred, at the subconscious level, via the "Word" and beliefs.
And, I in no way am trying to be argumentative here. I just have not ever written on this topic and felt compelled to write this here now. Leadership, mastery of life, only occurs when a person recognizes the fantasmical gifts and powers that we have been given to create our lives and our world as a collective humanity. And this fact about "the word" has been blatantly in our face from the most authoritative sources, but we haven't really thought about what they were saying "in the beginning was the word". Whether I recognize it or not, somewhere in the process of all of my creations, the WORD has played a critical part of whether or not they came to be.
Trust, for me, says, I know this will happen, even though I may not understand the total mystery. God, or Source sustains all, and if I align and believe a thing to be - it will be because there is plenty of proof in that I am here, thinking an doing something so there must be support from some incredible source. Because this experience, LIFE, is a wonderous adventure an expanding expression of love, who's intent is on ever expanding life that is "a stairway that leads somewhere". What I know, is it is back to the ONE, but in order for me to get there, I have to live my life to the fullest, but then in that process when I see the "kingdom", I have to try to share with others who don't see it themselves because they believe what others have told them.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I will be happy when?
June 13, 2010
I will be happy when,
some tragic past event comes undone?
When I get the job that I have dreamed about?
Conditioned happiness is a guarantee for unhappiness,
This state of mind is one lacking gratitude
For God´s love
That pours down and sustains us
Always, All ways,
When we sit in judgment of what is,
Dissatisfied with the condition of our lives.
And even those around us, or what happens in the world.
We are missing the point.
Our greatest fear is not being loved.
But we are loved.
By the only Being that is important.
And all the conditions of the world,
Are as they are, exactly as supposed.
all is in perfect order.
And yet in our tiny minds,
all is in disorder.
When will I allow myself to be happy?
When will all of the things and aspects of my life
be situated in a way where I will be at peace?
When I make up my mind to be grateful.
for all of the gifts I have been given.
My life, my experiences, the ones I love, the beauty of the world,
But especially the love of God.
That can work through me clearly.
When I am open to the channel.
Because the flow is always present.
Whether I believe, feel, or know it.
It is all that sustains me.
There is no other way.
So, today I make a commitment.
To let this love flow.
To be a beacon, a lighthouse to the world.
To shine the truth of God´s love.
I promise to be happy now.
And to be grateful for what I have.
No conditions have to change.
Except for as they are Now.
And so it be . . . eternally.
I will be happy when,
some tragic past event comes undone?
When I get the job that I have dreamed about?
Conditioned happiness is a guarantee for unhappiness,
This state of mind is one lacking gratitude
For God´s love
That pours down and sustains us
Always, All ways,
When we sit in judgment of what is,
Dissatisfied with the condition of our lives.
And even those around us, or what happens in the world.
We are missing the point.
Our greatest fear is not being loved.
But we are loved.
By the only Being that is important.
And all the conditions of the world,
Are as they are, exactly as supposed.
all is in perfect order.
And yet in our tiny minds,
all is in disorder.
When will I allow myself to be happy?
When will all of the things and aspects of my life
be situated in a way where I will be at peace?
When I make up my mind to be grateful.
for all of the gifts I have been given.
My life, my experiences, the ones I love, the beauty of the world,
But especially the love of God.
That can work through me clearly.
When I am open to the channel.
Because the flow is always present.
Whether I believe, feel, or know it.
It is all that sustains me.
There is no other way.
So, today I make a commitment.
To let this love flow.
To be a beacon, a lighthouse to the world.
To shine the truth of God´s love.
I promise to be happy now.
And to be grateful for what I have.
No conditions have to change.
Except for as they are Now.
And so it be . . . eternally.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Starting today - The New Me - I Am
The New Me - I Am
Here is the first message of this new Writer person I am becoming. Finally, I am just letting go and trusting that I will be lead to where I need to go. I am going to stop pushing the river, as I have likely been doing most of my life.
It is strange I have been writing and editing other people´s work for 20 years. I have been saying I want to write a book someday for I don´t know how many years.
I did write a book last year, and have another one well on the way, but I didn´t believe I was a writer. I guess I have been afraid that I can´t make a living at it. Why not?
This is an interesting process. It has taken a long time, but I guess the perfect amount of time, because this is where I am.
I am currently waiting for guidance, about the next steps. I have more than enough information in my head, and on my computer to do all kinds of stuff, but that is what I have been doing for the last 50 years. But now it is a matter of the heart. I have heard that the heart, one of our 5 brains, is by far the most powerful. I also have learned that Jesus who was trying to get start thinking from there. At different times I totally trusted my heart, but often would quickly run back to my head. But my heart has been guiding me all along. That is why I am here, now.
Now, I relax, say a prayer, and wait for the voice in my head to tell me just what the next step is. And I am not kidding about the voice in my head. The one that has been ranting, and worrying, etc. all of these years, is not me. The calm, confident, relaxed, and seemingly all knowing one is.
I´ll be sure to let you know what happens.
With Great Love,
Andy
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